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One day Hatsuki was hurt on campus and was helped by Watakabe Tatsuyuki, the most famous idol in school. Hatsuki, being gay, secretly fell in love with Watakabe. However, Watakabe doesn't have any interest in Hatsuki until one day when Hatsuki found out the truth about Watakabe's words: "I killed my little brother."
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Not a fan
The uke needs therapy and the seme belongs in jail. I'm all for dark and cruel characters, but this guy doesn't have anything at all to redeem him (not that anything could redeem him for the horrible things that he does) and there is no real explanation as to why he's so abusive and why his personality changes so quickly. The story and characters don't make much sense either. For the record, this is not BDSM. It's flat out abuse and criminal behavior.
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The relationship starts out from rape of course. From then the relationship just gets more and more abusive and disgusting. Hatsuki's cousin is rightfully against the relationship after seeing the horrors his cousin has been going though, but completely changes his mind just pages later and realizes obviously Watakabe loves Hatsuki and they can't be without each other. HUH? You don't kidnap and abuse, drug and rape the ones you love! Not even in BL manga.
Hatsuki stands by his man throughout everything, until the end when he finally comes to the realization he has to leave. Yay. Not so fast. He tries to leave after being choked and raped, but is stopped and locked up in chains for days. During that time he seems to change his mind about leaving and only wants to convince Watakabe that he truly loves him. Shockholm sydrome anyone?
The impact of "killing my brother" is lost because most of that part of the story happened in another manga. There is also a sub-plot with his mother that really makes little sense as well.
The story climaxes with evil seme saving stupid uke from some guys trying to beat him up (oh the irony) and they have sweet sex and everything is okay. Disappointing to say the least. You never find anything about the characters at all. I'm used to explaining away horrible behavior in manga, but this isn't even explained.. it's just accepted for what it is. Did Watakabe remain abusive? There is no signs that he's "cured" since there is nothing that happened to possible change his behavior. So many questions. I'm not sure I want to know the answer though.
Obviously love is not always kittens and rainbows and love like this does happen, but at the end of the manga the "love story" between the two isn't portrayed as unhealthy. The seme is magically rehabilitated for some reason and we are just supposed to accept it all. I gave it two stars because I like the mangaka's art. Don't read it otherwise.
... Last updated on January 23rd, 2012, 7:00pm
Call me kinky
For some reason, i have always enjoyed reading mangas about domestic violence and sadistic charecters. I feel it offers a real insight into these peoples emotions even though most of the time they are artificial. Here, i felt it was a little more realistic in some aspects as it followed on from the prequal and we can see that this sadist had been emotionally scarred to cause him to commit such things against his lover. It shows the emotional struggle as a child followed on by the sturggle he faces now. I feel the end was rather abrupt and too simple. I think the mangaka should have followed onto this with chapters on tatsuyuki overcoming his violence and learning to love. It would have made a great finishing to show that domestic violence could be overcome because in reality, that never really happens so it would have added a bit of sunshine to this dark manga. The uke was your typical abusee and was a real portrayal of a person who cannot escape domestic violence because of this thing called 'love'. Though it was portrayed that tatsuyuki did fall for him, there didn't seem to be any justification to it apart from the uke kind of being timid and putting up with him which is not real love. I felt that tatsuyuki was in love with the idea of being loved and the first person to put up with his abuse that had gone from emotional with his brother to sever physical with his lovers was too shallow and should have been expressed differently to show that tatsuyuki loved oher parts of hiroki that didnt include just his submissive personality.
I liked it, but only because I'm a sadist
I liked it. But I understand why other people wouldn't; it's pretty messed up. The main problem I had with this manga was the ending, which was far too sudden and out-of character-- not to mention the manga's too goddamn short. Other than that, I was pretty pleased with the story. We've got an abusive seme dude and this uke guy. (I have no idea what their names were and I really don't care either)
The story's about the uke guy who's in love with (or rather thinks he's in love with) this seme dude. He puts up with Seme's bullshit, not because he thinks it's okay, but because he's in love with Seme and hopes Seme will one day reciprocate his feelings. That sounds stupid doesn't it? But humans are stupid. We're like that. We tie ourselves down with false fantasies and we end up regretting it. Uke's like that too. I liked seeing a character completely aware that he was being an idiot and going with it anyway.
In defense of Seme, the guy was a douchebag, yes he was-- but... errr he never denied it (which is like saying "I sometimes eat babies but at least I know I do")(argument negated). After mulling over it for a while (two seconds actually) I've decided to agree with an earlier comment that Seme's just a really lonely guy who needs somebody to see his f*cked up side and accept him for it. Uke, resplendent in his everlasting idiocy and delusions, is that guy.
So that's it. If you can't handle sexual and psychological abuse along with a psychotic seme, don't bother reading this; it'll just piss you off. If you don't really mind that and if you like a bit of violence spicing up your yaoi then go ahead and read it. The art's pretty too, and I'd much prefer reading a yaoi like this than a boring-ass slice-of-life. Note: Had the uke been a women my feelings towards him wouldn't have been any different.
... Last updated on May 4th, 2013, 2:32pm
Ended Too Soon
The ratio of trauma vs healing is completely off in this manga, where it is about 80% trauma and 20% semi-healing. For a good trauma/healing story, those numbers should be reversed or at least 50-50. As it stands, it is just a lot of bloody violence with very little character growth and a forced "happy ending" that reads more like battered wife syndrome than actual love.
I do find the characters themselves interesting, but the author needed to portray a lot more of the post-make-up reconciliation and difficulties. Watakabe should have had more struggles and inner turmoil leading to an obvious (aka show it to the readers!) paradigm shift followed by an equally painful and much longer time reforming himself and apologizing/making it up to Hazuki. I mean, what's going to happen if Hazuki gets a job in another city post graduation? I don't feel like at any point in the manga Watakabe resolved his issues of control, so they're going to be a miserable couple in the future if Hazuki ever gets a life independent of Watakabe. (Well, I guess in the author's mind, Hazuki will make a cute housewife or something...)
If you get past all the rape and abuse... who are you kidding? There's no getting past the rape and abuse here, and I don't know how some people can. This story's core is rape and abuse. Without it, it'd be a happy story of love, sure, but that would be a whole other story with whole other characters--not this story. This isn't your typical BL "forced love" or dub-con--it's 100% violence and abuse and should be read as such.
The only way to redeem this story is to rewrite it. If you want this sort of plot but done infinitely better, go read Sayounara, to Kimi wa Te o Futta, which is an incredible manga.
Better than the prequel
It was actually an interesting read. Its better than the prequel. This seme is not just sadistic but rather psychologically unstable. Even though they are messed up, you can see the love developed between them. They had a happy ending at the end so Im happy.
... Last updated on February 26th, 2013, 7:23pm
Not a fan. Not. A. Fan. If you switched the uke out for a girl, would anyone be able to brush this off as an "angsty love story"? It's abuse, plain and simple. What could the uke POSSIBLY love about a guy in one day? He says that the seme's "gentle"? Bitch, you've only known him for half a day! Lots of people make great first impressions! (Liiiiike serial killers...) Honestly, this story hits a little too close to home--not the physically abusive part but the psychological abuse. That is supremely messed up--I don't see the love in this at all. The uke wants to spend the rest of his life with a seme who mind games him and projects his inadequacies on the uke? Was the sex even good or did the uke get stockholm syndrome? And for that matter, what about the back story with the brother? That needed to be expanded upon bc it just seemed badly thought out and thrown in there at the last minute.
This was not my cup of tea. I guess I liked the art. It wasn't original art, but while reading the manga I found it aesthetically pleasing. You know, in between all the choking and slapping and handcuffing.
far better than the main story
I agree that it ended too quickly but the story was addicting. Main character was the most interesting one even from the main story. I was really happy to see how he struggled with his emotional problems and that he had such a luck to meet somebody brave enough to break through his violence. He really needed help and I really liked that he received it (which normally seldom happens). That is the most captivating point of this story. I agree that the uke was somewhat surprising with coping so well with so much abuse but it wasn't irritating.
I recommend this story with prequel to have a better insight on seme's character.
... Last updated on October 30th, 2012, 12:10pm
Not as bad as I thought
To be honest I was a bit apprehensive of starting this manga. I wasn't entirely sure if I should spend my time on it after looking at the ratings and comments but decided to read it anyway. I won't say I'm thoroughly pleased to not have skipped this because I'm neutral about it, but I think the story is more than meets the eye.
Sure it's not your everyday BL where the "happy" kind of love floats in the air like every 3 pages or so, and the characters weren't that appealing -- personality wise (especially Watakabe, jeez he deserves a punch or two from someone). However, if you get passed the rape aspect of the story you'd truly see what it's worth; the author has shown a different kind of love about accepting someone wholeheartedly no matter what their circumstance is. Hatsuki saw something in Watakabe that made him stick to the latter 'til the very end despite the cruelties done to him. And in Watakabe I see a very lonely person who is in desperate need of someone to understand and love him.
So after all that deep thinking in my part (seriously, it's starting to verge on the philosophical), I still gave the series a 6.5 simply because it was too short. I would've truly appreciated it if there was more characterization to effectively portray what the mangaka is trying to tell us readers. The resolution wasn't that good either; Watakabe seeing a psychiatrist or something for the sake of himself and his partner would've definitely tugged my heart strings because, truthfully, even with how the story is wrapped up, there's no saying what might happen or what he might do -- he ever remains the broken person we see from the beginning albeit the savior in the form of Watakabe.
... Last updated on August 8th, 2011, 10:24pm
this is so bad, *sigh*
it's really sad to see that yamakami riyu is not growing out this ridiculous idea that somehow severe abuse and violence is excusable if the person only ends up in love with the one they abuse. there is slightly more depth in this work than there is in "deep flower", but she still completely fails to give watakabe any motivation that might make us understand exactly why he acts as he does. i hated his guts in "mitasereru" because he mistreated his brother (whom he was also allegedly in love with), and we never found out exactly what was behind his twistedness. we don't find out here either. and i cannot stand the sacrificial lamb uke who continues to suffer so the abusive lover can be redeemed. yamakami doesn't seem to understand that this is not actually redemptive at all; that the suffering and atonement need to be turned onto the abuser himself for it to work.
There's some room for improvement, but overall I liked it. Better than the prequel too. If you've read it, you'll know how psychologically unstable Watakabe is.
While there is a lot of abuse at the beginning, what I did like is that Hatsuki already had feelings invested in Watakabe before he'd discovered Watakabe's other side - their relationship didn't start with rape but before that. I would also contest that Watakabe isn't "magically rehabilitated" at the end:
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Watakabe's violence stemmed from his feelings of distrust, abandonment and the inability to keep people he cared about close to him. He also could care less about people he has no emotions for. These are all things he's still going to have to work on.
What might give the impression that he's fully recovered is the fact that he has loving sex with Hatsuki at the end, but there was nothing beforehand that said he liked to be sadistic in bed - it was only his outlet. Will he never hurt Hatsuki again as a release? Probably not. Those emotions and that programming are going to take years to let go. But as far as I see it, Hatsuki is already prepared for that.
I'm ever grateful to the small extra after the story. If not for that, I probably would have more bitter feelings towards the ending. But in the extra, it showed that Hatsuki was ready to stand up to Watakabe when need be. He was also going to start getting Watakabe to clean his own house - often times a disorganized home shows the disorganized and hectic life of the one living there. Watakabe never took responsibility for his home and instead left it up to a maid he didn't really care about. Now, Hatsuki's taking the lead and planning to get Watakabe to join him when cleaning... Kind of a sneaky way to teach Watakabe to take care of his own life if you ask me. :)
With that feeling that the two are planning to work on themselves and their relationship moving forward at the end of the story, I was thoroughly satisfied with it. It didn't give me the impression everything was sunshine and roses and that there would be no future struggles in their relationship as so many other BL with similar abuse stories have.