Because it's a masterpiece, but the ending is horrible. So it's the biggest yaoi disappointment of my life, and I've been waiting for years for The Summit, LSD and others to end.
I started reading this thinking it was a love-triangle, only to realize it's meant to be a poly amorous relationships. I have nothing against them, though it's not my cup of tea so I wouldn't have read it if I'd realized before that it was going to end this way.
However, the problem is that it isn't. It tries to be a poly amorous relationship, but it's not. While I understand the concept that not everybody in these types of relationships has to feel the same way about each other, I think once there's pain involved and a lot of one-sided feelings, it's not healthy.
And this is exactly the case - and I did read the DJ. However PSYCHE Delico tried to explain it there, if that's what she wanted to portray, then she didn't do a good job.
Hiroi doesn't love Mine. He may like him, think he is cute, but who he actually loves is Take. He doesn't just treasure him, he actually loves him, to the point he couldn't bear to have a relationship and not include him. He was also in so much denial about his own feelings, that he had to find a way to include Take in his relationships so that he could have some kind of sexual interaction with him without risking their BFF relationship or finding out whether or not Take has feelings for him too.
Mine is the only one who's a bit more fluid. He claims he loves Hiroi, but I don't actually believe it either. It's more like a first love, the type of scenario where a character gets attached to another because they're the first person to have ever been nice to them. But it's too shallow, too fragile. It could go away at any time. His body tells the truth that he hasn't realized himself yet, which is that he's in love with Take. It's just the way it is. Their sexual chemistry is much higher, he likes it rough, he feels actual pleasure with him. Though, once again, PSYCHE Delico tries to justify it as him separating a sexual from an emotional relationship, that's not what has been portrayed.
And then there's Take, which is the most difficult to read about. He's completely and painfully in love with Mine, while not having any feelings for Hiroi whatsoever. He treasures him as a friend, yes, but... Mine is the first person he's ever felt something for. And the angst is crushing. That chapter with the biting, what was that? Desperately wanting to leave his mark, so that Hiroi couldn't have him all for himself.
This manga started out as a very original idea, one I had not seen before. But it should have stopped at one point and conformed to the yaoi world, instead of aiming for more - because that's when things didn't go well.
Reading the comments, it's clear that everyone wants Hiroi cut out of the equation. He even allures to that himself, making snarky remarks about how Take and Mine have started to kiss, or constantly pointing out that Mine is more into sex with Take than with him. It's very upsetting to have this scenario set up, but no closure.
And then there's something personal to me. I love ukes that are seme-like, have a bad personalty, are cold and rebellious. That's Mine, he's perfect, as well as the hottest one of them.
Take, on the other had, started out a bit of a wallflower, but when his pervy sided showed...wow. Also the kind of seme I like, and the repressed feelings just add to it.
But Hiroi? Boring. Gross. Looks like an uke, with a feminine appearance and smaller body, the bubbly-to-an-annoying-degree-but-also-makes-acid-comments type... just get rid of him, please.
Oh, and don't bother reading the sequel, it's more of the same and no closure.
In fact, I didn't read the other stories, the ones non-related to CSV, and that's the first time I've ever done that. With that being said, I don't think I'll read anything from this mangaka ever again because it crushed me to have it end like this.
I wouldn't recommend it just so you don't end up so unhappy with the ending like me (and basically the whole comment section).
PS: The art is gorgeous, but I don't like the hairs on the legs
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