Well, I didnt cry, not because its not bad, rather I couldnt seem to sympathize with the characters. All of them are flawed but I dont hate them.
The uke is not right using sex to forget someone, but noone would be in his right mind after being treated like any gay guy on the street and he was also raped by the one he loved.
Hoshina is no saint since he approached him for his body first and hid Satou's feeling for Miwa. But everyone acts selfish when it comes to love. Besides, it must be painful to be used as a substitute.
My least fav is Satou, I understand hes scared but he hurts so many people and act like a victim. At least he did got traumatized after raping someone so I dont hate him as much.

Yes, that's how I feel right now. Speechless. I don't know what I should say at all about this manga. It's so friggin' screwed up. The characters aren't developing properly and the whole plotline just seems...retard to me. Hoshina seems like a nice guy to me and I thought Miwa will end up with him BUT...?! well, some things just won't go the way as we want. Everything seems rushed. I only gave it a 5 since Hoshina is a nice guy. Only for him! Don't even make me talk about Katou. Even I want to punch him up.

... Last updated on April 14th, 2012, 7:27am

It's a very realistic manga, agsty throughout, my eyes kept watering all the time.

I liked the manga. Although it has sad moments and a Not-so-happily-ever-after ending, it comes really close to reality and the fact that not everyone gets what they want. It's bittersweet in a nice way, every character grew and matured in some aspects through the story.
I recommend it, but if you are used to fairytale like stories where everyone ends up with their soul mate and happy and fluffy then this isn't it

The rating for this manga was not that high, thus I did not expect much from it. Yet, I ended up enjoying it, at least the first 2 or 3 chapters.
In my opinion, the sex scenes are quite controversial according to personal thinking. Even though I am not agree with such doings, still those scenes are not just random and rushed but rather involve feelings and thoughts. The plot is there, the characters are there, everything is perfect.
Then the ending comes, and I am pissed! So what will happen with Hashina? ( This is as if reading about a story from the point of view of the 3rd person in love. I unconsciously took Hashina as the main character, thus felt bad for him with the unrequited love. He is not a jerk and does deserve more than this.

The first three chapters were good...the premise had enough angst to satisfy me and none of the characters annoyed me. With that said, I think the ending ruined the whole story for me.

The ending was too rushed and over-dramatic. It didn't flow well with the beginning of the story, and I felt that it disregarded character developments. As I see it, Hashina was the only one that really changed throughout the story, but what was the point of him changing if the story ended the way it did?

This could have been a more memorable story, but instead the ending reduced it to just a frustrating read.

... Last updated on April 5th, 2010, 5:16pm

The storyline quite disturbed me in some ways. I'm not a fan of storyline when sex is used for the cure of the pain, however this story reminded that love is not all about happiness but there is sad and sometimes to achieve it you have to bear the pain.

I think it ended like it should have the hashina guy just took advantage of the situation to get miwa for himself but toward the end he had a concious at least miwa is a really weak character though just using hashina sexually because he couldn't deal with the issues and katou was in total denial not the best thing i'v ever read it's kind of a sad story

Rushed, more sex scenes than actual plot, not much of a conflict from the love triangle, conclusion obvious from the first chapter, and use of sex to heal rape trauma. Really too many cliches to count. From the start, the events and characters are forced around the conclusion, not the conclusion being a resolution of the conflicts introduced.

They get so tangled up in their emotions, it's.. just bad. The uke is depressed most of the time, and so are the semes.. They just mess each other up, and it's horrible. I forced myself to finish, but I didn't enjoy much.

This story just ended up annoying me. All the characters, the ending...ugh. Its so unrealistic (as is most yaoi, I realize that). But this one just rubbed me the wrong way.