Aono-kun ni Sawaritai kara Shinitai

Description

From Kodansha:
I would die if it would allow me to touch you. That is my love. Airhead Yuri-chan and her boyfriend Aono-kun had a perfectly normal relationship until one-day Aono-kun suddenly “passed away”. They will never be bound together, and they cannot even touch. This is their difficult and almost too sincere love story.

Original Manga

Official English: Azuki, INKR

Note: Nominated for the 25th annual Tezuka Osamu Cultural Prize in 202 and the 45th Kodansha Manga Award in the general category in 2021.

Type

Manga

Related Series

N/A

Associated Names

I Want to Die Because I Want to Touch Aono

I Want to Hold Aono-kun So Badly I Could Die

想要触碰青野君所以我想死

想要觸碰青野君所以我想死

青野くんに触りたいから死にたい

아오노 군과 닿고 싶으니까 죽고 싶어

아오노 군에게 닿고 싶으니까 죽고 싶어

Groups Scanlating

Maladroit-Scans

Latest Release(s)

c.70 by Maladroit-Scans 6 months ago

c.69 by Maladroit-Scans 6 months ago

c.68 by Maladroit-Scans 6 months ago

Search for all releases of this series

Status in Country of Origin

13 Volumes (Ongoing)

Completely Scanlated?

Anime Start/End Chapter

N/A

User Reviews

N/A

Forum

0 topics, 0 posts

Click here to view the forum

User Rating

Average: 8.5 / 10.0 (45 votes)

Bayesian Average: 7.61 / 10.0

36%

31%

13%

Last Updated

August 22nd, 2025 11:29am PDT - 1 week ago

Image [Report Inappropriate Content]

Genre

Drama Horror Mature Psychological Romance School Life Seinen Slice of Life Supernatural Tragedy
Search for series of same genre(s)

Categories

Log in to vote! Show all (some hidden)

Category Recommendations

Liu Yao: The Revitalization of Fuyao Sect (Novel)

Recommendations

N/A

Author(s)

SHIINA Umi

Artist(s)

SHIINA Umi

Year

2016

Original Publisher

Kodansha

Serialized In (magazine)

Afternoon (Kodansha)

Licensed (in English)

Yes

English Publisher

Kodansha USA (12 Digital Volumes; Ongoing)

Activity Stats (vs. other series)

Weekly Pos #838

(+51)

Monthly Pos #1468

(-483)

3 Month Pos #2699

(-346)

6 Month Pos #3236

(-625)

Year Pos #3682

(-314)

List Stats

On 243 reading lists

On 228 wish lists

On 6 completed lists

On 10 unfinished lists

On 133 custom lists

Note: You must be logged in to update information on this page.

Forum Posts Click to view the forum

User Comments [ Order by usefulness ]

This is more a thriller than a horror manga

by N.I.B
7 months ago

Rating: 7.0 / 10.0

...with a lot of awkward situations and a lot of awful characters, with a story that goes nowhere. The mystery and the horror is in there, but the story takes one step forward and three steps back, it's annoying. Sometimes I feel like the author adds that intentional comedy on purpose, and at the end of the day it just adds fuel to the fire of how the situations between the characters turn out to be more annoying than they actually are.

If you're looking for romance, this series literally doesn't have it, the "love" that the two of them supposedly have is more of an obsession with seeking emotional support than having true love. Tbh, Yozakura Family and Nezumi no Hatsukoi have more authentic love than what the author unsuccessfully tries to do here, I'm giving you some examples of how a manga that shouldn't supposed to have any romance can actually work, even without trying.

Let's be fair, after the 3rd volume, the story improves a bit, some arcs which have to do with the main story are interesting, and some mini arcs are enjoyable, there's an interesting background to mostly of the characters, you can tell that the author tries hard to give some personality to the secondary characters, that was the highlight of the manga.

If you watched the 90's movie "Ghost" (the one with Whoopi Goldberg) and read Shibito no Koe o Kiku ga Yoi, it's literally the same, but with a deeper story, but it goes really slow and that would be annoying for some readers, because the author doesn't know how to write a solid story.

... Last updated 7 months ago

Was this comment useful? Yes

brilliant so far

by brandito
3 years ago

Rating: 9.0 / 10.0

Perfect mix between comedy, romance and horror. The art is very 'quaint' but holy hell does the artist know how to frame a scene in the creepiest way possible, and the added detail during the more emotional scenes really glues the mood together. The deeper the story gets into its own mechanics and lore the better it gets. Definitely leans towards the more heartwrenching side of things but there's plenty of fluff between the MCs and just 8 volumes in they've already developed a great deal.

Was this comment useful? Yes

Cute Horror

by Rubbamaa
4 years ago

Rating: 10.0 / 10.0

This is really a mix of comedy, romance, and horror.

Comedies are mostly about dirty jokes told by innocent teens which makes them embarassed and awkward.
The romance is just a bit sad if you think about it. Someone losing her loved one, can see him but can't touch him.
The horror is unexpectedly great with disgusting pictures and intimidating aura, coming from a cute artstyle. The lores are also well-explained.

Recommended.

Was this comment useful? Yes

Misleading BUT I LOVE IT

by garlicbread
6 years ago

Rating: 9.0 / 10.0

I was definitely expecting something more innocent and fluffy when I went into this, and that was not what I got. There still was a "sincere love story", but there's definitely something...off about this couple. As you continue reading the manga, occasional instances of creepy and disturbing imagery make it clear that there is something terribly wrong with Yuri's reincarnated lover.

Other reviewers, both on this site and others, have given the series bad reviews due to the synopsis being "misleading." Personally, I think it was done very well. It wouldn't have had quite the same impact if I knew what I was going into, just like with Madoka Magica (as another commenter observed).

I do have to agree, though, that the plot was a little ridiculous and unrealistic at times--like when the main character wanted to commit suicide over this guy that she barely knew. And though the romance was there, it wasn't very well developed. Why is Yuri so devoted to Aono, anyway? Hopefully we'll get an actual backstory later.

As for the art style, it's a bit simplistic, but it's easy on the eyes and I think it actually suits this story very well. You'd never expect such a disturbing story from art like this, and that's what makes it better than some of the other hyperrealistic but predictable horror manga. Personally, I also feel the art style made Dark Aono's moments much more chilling.

Still, I wouldn't exactly call this manga a "horror." It's more lighthearted than that; the characters are quirky and don't take their situation that seriously, and the manga is riddled with inappropriate jokes at inappropriate times. Honestly, it's made me laugh more than it has sent chills down my spine. Definitely give this one a shot!

Was this comment useful? Yes

Delightfully disturbing

by Doubt
6 years ago

Rating: 8.0 / 10.0

I agree with pichuloo's review in that the sense you get from the art style and the blurb doesn't match up with the intensity of the story. But this discrepancy has been endearing to me, or at least spellbinding in a way.

From chapter 1 alone (available on Kodansha's website) you get the impression that this manga is not entirely as black and white (or vague, I suppose) as the summary paints it. You're introduced to a lot of oddities right away, least of all being Aono-kun's death, and the juxtaposition of cute art with how dark the story can get is reminiscent of series like Madoka Magica and Promised Neverland. It's not that there isn't a "sincere love story" (MC is very sincere), but after blowing through the first four volumes I think it's more thoroughly explained as a supernatural mystery that delves into Japanese folktales and legends, like Ghost Hunt only with an emphasis on the romance in an enthusiastic and inexperienced couple.

So, I'd say try out chapter 1 and keep going if you find yourself wanting more. "Guro" seems a bit of a strong label

when it's mostly nosebleeds, but it does get dark. It's not horror to the level of Junji Ito, though, or at least not yet. If you're a little bit of a pervert and/or you appreciate when things get a little dark, I think you'll like this. I'm definitely looking forward to the rest.

Was this comment useful? Yes

Very misleading art and synopsis

by pichuloo
7 years ago

Rating: 4.0 / 10.0

I don't write reviews often, but seeing this one has not a single comment here, I'd like to address a few things, based on reading volume 1st and skimming the 2nd volume:

I do think the official Kodansha summary is extremely misleading; "almost too sincere love story" made me think it was a very innocent/heart-warming/cute story. There are few disturbing scenes that do feature images that border on very mild guro which made me feel a bit uncomfortable.

So, the story is a about Yuri-chan who has a crush on Aono-kun, they end up pretty soon together. 2 weeks after they started dating, Aono passes away and Yuri is devastated. As she was about to commit suicide because she can't bear life without him anymore (after 2 weeks of dating!!), Aono appears as a "ghost" and was able to stop her just in time. So begins the supernatural/weird love story with blood and kinda disturbing body possessing imagery.

Honestly, this isn't what I expected. As I mentioned above, I don't really think it's innocent or cute at all and wouldn't recommend it unless you like supernatural manga with elements of guro. The art is pretty plain most of the time.

... Last updated 7 years ago

Was this comment useful? Yes