This yaoi was stunning. This is the first I've read (I think) by this mangaka, now I'm about to go read all her others. The story starts out simple - a simple setting, two "normal" people at a club - one who works there, one who parties...and yet, it's so refreshingly original. This yaoi was breathtaking, as in, seriously, even right now, a good 20 minutes after reading this, and probably for quite a while longer, I am still catching my breath. The atmosphere was a 10/10 -- it made things very moody, confusing, hazy, and everything culminated in a beautiful peak after so much tension. The characters were just like real people to me, the main character was a great representation of a straight man falling in love with a guy for the first time, and that whole yearning about wanting to see him, wanting to see him smile or laugh, being drawn to him constantly, longing to touch him, thinking another guy is cute for the first time... all of that was so real. The author really makes you fall in love with both of the guys, especially Saya. You see the main character falling for him, beginning to have feelings for him, and the readers start falling for him too. Or at least, I was like that. You feel the character's heartbreak, their desperation, their pain, their longing for reconciliation and forgiveness. As bad as I felt for ------- for what happens, I understand that it's a lot to process, and if you're getting ahead of yourself a bit before really knowing what you're getting into, I relate to the mc. I don't think he really struggled with the idea enough, he just kinda went with the current and got lost in his emotions, and when his mind caught up to process the reality of where things were going, he couldn't proceed. It's definitely very sad and very heartbreaking though. Sexuality is just confusing.
The manga is short, but it touches on the very deep, very real feelings of hurt and bullying and homophobia, and the scars it leaves on the people.
I love the main character, yuusuke. he's relatable, more so than saya, i think, although i definitely feel for saya. his budding love for saya, starting with realizing that finally there's someone who can understand him and read him and know him. They're so hot, too. I'm not saying that in a shallow way, but I mean that the chemistry, especially the tension, between them is seriously sizzling. There were times I had to take a break and breathe and just stare at a panel.
This manga is just wonderful. Read it if you want to feel and fall in love.