Chigusa lives alone following the death of his wife, trapped in a monotonous cycle of work, dinner, sleep, work... Until one rainy day, when he rescues an odd little ball of fluff from the roadside and takes it home.
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Couldn't understand why Chigusa had a blasé response to having a cat/ghost at first, until you realise from all his actions and reactions that he's really depressed and is just an automaton. Add in Kedama and you've got two depressed people just trying to provide a bit of comfort and happiness.
Unlike OmNom, I actually think there's a lot of subtlety in this title.
The glimpses to Chigusa's wife was painted deliberately negative--arranged marriage, not noticing the deterioration of her health. And yet you've got an important panel with the wife surprising him with the flowers, which tells you a bit that it's turning into a loving relationship. We're also given a glimpse of Kedama's recent abandonment, but dude is in traditional clothing so just imagine how long he's been a ghost. When you're depressed, you don't necessarily remember any of the good things.
It reads a bit like a parable (complete with heavy-handed deus ex machina). Overly dramatic on one hand, and a bit too cutesy on the other (it needed to or else this would've been more sad than it already was), but it reads sincere.
A testament to how much I liked this piece: when I initially read it, it was incomplete at the time. Yet it always lingered at the back of my mind - I had to finish the story or I could not rest! So when i found nan-chatte's website about half a year later with the complete version, I was ecstatic to say the least.
What makes this manga stand out imo is the mood it creates. There is this ethereal atmosphere that permeates the story - something magical, quiet, and pure (best exemplified by Kedama, but it goes beyond just the character). The elegant art style is a huge contributor to the whole vibe. And yes, Chigusa is really handsome. Maybe it tries too hard to be tragic, but it works! It made me ugly cry. Perhaps I am weak, lol.
I thought this manga had a lot of subtlety too. One good example is Chigusa's loneliness. No one ever mentions it explicitly, but it is inferred. He does not say much, but his feelings are conveyed in his actions and expressions. He has friends, but is emotionally distant. But even as he tries to keep his feelings bottled, his passions slowly emerge over the course of the manga as Kedama breaks down his walls with its innocence.
He struggles to connect with others because of his lingering guilt over his wife. He becomes exasperated, happy, worried. He rushes home to see his neko. He drinks when he is upset, in an act out of character.
Kedama is naive, but his occasional irrationality can be easily empathised with. It makes sense that you'd want the best for the only person who has shown you kindness. At least to Kedama, it meant that it should do everything it could for Chigusa, within its means.
All in all, this was so overwhelmingly romantic. It also kept me on my toes. It uses some cliches, but it compensates for them with the nuances in emotion and genuine feels. 10/10 really, but mostly because it made me cry. And for a seasoned yaoi reader like me, it is quite an achievement.
I was slightly surprised this lasted like 8 chapters, but at the same time I didn’t feel like it dragged on for too long. The story is really really cute, kedama is super adorable and Chigusa is just a very nice guy. Both go through lots of things but this story is more about kedama’s hardships to make happy the one he loves.
I think the extra did it for me, enough to feel complete.
If there is one thing I would add to this is I wouldn’t call it yaoi.
This manga was pretty terrible I can't believe I managed to pull through and finish it. Yes a manga can be bad even if there's nothing controversial about it; must be a hard concept to grasp for some people 🙄
I don't even know where to begin to describe my gripes; maybe we can start with the main character which the mangaka obviously attempted to make as cute as possible with the girly designs as well as 'innocent' personality only for it to backfire bc he's honestly annoying af in so many ways but I'm gonna stop here and not dive deeper into this for the sake of my sanity. Not to mention the narrative which kept rubbing in our faces about how pitiful and 'tragic' his backstory is; we get it you're sad and lonely bc you were abandoned blah blah blah but repeating it over and over again won't actually move people to sympathise with you; there's a thing called subtlety fyi. But I guess this is more of a problem on the story-telling's side - the author just doesn't know how to transform the story into manga form at all; honestly her delivery is very messy and confusing as well as cliched and cheesy, and you can't really get much worse than that as a mangaka. The panelling is just tragic, and what even are transitions in the book. I lost count of how many times the story just jumped from one scene to another and made no sense. It's all a jumbled mess. There are other things like ineffective introduction of side characters whose almost non-existent purpose did not match the exposure they got and thus averted readers' attention from what should've been the focal point in a scene even more, but I'm done ranting.
I just.. hated everything I've just read; it's just such an awkward attempt at creating a sweet manga and failing miserably at that. Maybe you can start by, idk, writing some likeable characters first before inserting all those out-dated and superficial gimmicks to make them seem cute without investing anything into developing their personalities bc that'll just render them flatter than a piece of paper in the end.