I started to read an English BL comic a few years ago. I believe it was published originally in English (2 volumes were published that time), and the author had serious depression. But I read that drawing this comic helped her/him (I believe the drawer is a woman but not sure).

The story was about a demon who fell in love with a human. The human man loved him too, but he had no memory about the demon due to some reasons.

The story started with the monologue of the demon if I remember right. Something similar like this: Would you taste the most delicious cake of the world? Could you bear the suffering of never tasting it again? Or would you not even try to taste it because you know it would cause only suffering for you?

I tried to search it, but couldn't find it. I would really like to know its title!
Help me, please!T.T

Do you remember where you read the comic? And if it had a physical print at that time?
Was it coloured or monochrome?

I only found a few pages online because this manga had printed version. I also remember finding the creator's page where the volumes could be ordered from. (I don't remember whether digital version was available or not.)

If I remember right, the comic was black and white, the style was closer to American comics, it wasn't like a tipical Asian comic. I think it ment to be read as American comics as well.

The fact that it's an English comic makes it harder to find since it's most likely not on the database here.
I'll message you privately

Still want to find this manga!T.T