What's your deepest, darkest secret and or fear

17 years ago
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Quote from robthemanbigboy
fears... hmm... i have a fear that i will die young. i fear i may never leave my parents house. i fear wasting time on anythiing, and in return waste my time finding something to do that isnt a waste of time. i fear that my bad side will take over again at some point. i fear wearing sweatpants in public incase i get a boner. i fear that i may kill someone while trying to protect someone else.
secrets... hmm... more than once a few years ago, when i was sleeping in the same room as a girl i knew, i lifted up her shirt while she was sleeping and licked her nipples and groped her breasts while i masturbated, and she doesn't know b/c she didnt wake up. back when i used to like it, my favorite type of pornography was hentai, and i had a huge collection of naruto hentai. i used to steal from stores, and only stopped b/c i was caught and was brought to a police station to get scared. i sometimes find myself unable to look in a mirror for fear of seeing the me that did all this horrible stuff. i sometimes have nightmares of my past, and have woken up with tears in my eyes. i sometimes feel that i can never be forgiven for all of the sins that i have commited.
god man, dont gotta be so damn down on yourself....
i hate my past, with an unbelivible fiery burning passion, as well.....so i know what thats like..but ya just gotta do the best ya can.....i mean, i got in trouble for stealin stuff to, but i dident get off lucky like you did....
why are people so damn hard on themselves?!
well...i guess i cant say anything...i wish i could get "amnesia" so i could lose all memory of how i was.... 🤣
oh, and i'm with you on the sweatpants thing...i hate those kinda pants

17 years ago
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My deepest secret.......
I shot a man in Reno just to watch him die. 😀
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17 years ago
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Honest to god I have a ghost in my room but no one believes me. Sometimes it can scare me shitless but most of the time it's off doing its own thing.

17 years ago
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my deepest darkest secret...i plead the 5th.
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17 years ago
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I don't know about deepest secrets, but one of my biggest fears is international plauges. Like another bubonic plauge or a worldwide outbreak of the ebola virus.
I don't like things that I can't see and can't defend against. I'm also afraid of needles, but only the ones that inject. Piercing needles don't bother me as much.
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17 years ago
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Quote from falmari
I don't know about deepest secrets, but one of my biggest fears is international plauges. Like another bubonic plauge or a worldwide outbreak of the ebola virus.
I don't like things that I can't see and can't defend against. I'm also afraid of needles, but only the ones that inject. Piercing needles don't bother me as much.
things that you cant see or defend against? that can be anything from viruses to ninjas. Be more specific.
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17 years ago
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Quote from falmari
I don't know about deepest secrets, but one of my biggest fears is international plauges. Like another bubonic plauge or a worldwide outbreak of the ebola virus.
I don't like things that I can't see and can't defend against. I'm also afraid of needles, but only the ones that inject. Piercing needles don't bother me as much.
things that you cant see or defend against? that can be anything from viruses to ninjas. Be more specific.
I guess that wasn't too coherant. The line "I don't like things that I can't see and can't defend against should have been connected to the previous thought about international plauges as the reason they freak me out. If viruses were the size of soccer balls and I could see them coming they wouldn't freak me out. It was not meant to be a seperate fear.
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17 years ago
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Quote from robthemanbigboy
fears... hmm... i have a fear that i will die young. i fear i may never leave my parents house. i fear wasting time on anythiing, and in return waste my time finding something to do that isnt a waste of time. i fear that my bad side will take over again at some point. i fear wearing sweatpants in public incase i get a boner. i fear that i may kill someone while trying to protect someone else.
secrets... hmm... more than once a few years ago, when i was sleeping in the same room as a girl i knew, i lifted up her shirt while she was sleeping and licked her nipples and groped her breasts while i masturbated, and she doesn't know b/c she didnt wake up. back when i used to like it, my favorite type of pornography was hentai, and i had a huge collection of naruto hentai. i used to steal from stores, and only stopped b/c i was caught and was brought to a police station to get scared. i sometimes find myself unable to look in a mirror for fear of seeing the me that did all this horrible stuff. i sometimes have nightmares of my past, and have woken up with tears in my eyes. i sometimes feel that i can never be forgiven for all of the sins that i have commited.
That's just too sad...
Oh my.. I've never got so sad because of a post...
Well, my deepest darkest secret is something that happened a really long time ago, when I was a child and still lived in Belorussia. I think I was 3-4(not sure).
I was playing on a metal thing in the park, and I was swinging and stuff.
Than a little baby girl, or at least I think she was a girl (maybe 2 or less) brooght by her parents apeared.
I was still swining there and her parents hung her on the metal thing to play in front of me..
I kept swinign, hit her, and she started crying..
Her parents scolded me, and I felt terrible and asked my father not to tell my mother (he was nearby).
I never could forget this.. I think maybe because I knew I could hit the baby but I kept swinging....
This will probubly sounds stupid to you.. That it isn't even something to be sad about...
But I still remember.. and it gives me a bad feeling...
Biggest fear : I'm afraid I won't achive my goals. And that my father will before me(I know it will probuly be like this.. But loosing someone dear to you is even harder than dying myself, for me.. Because I'm not really afraid of dying anyway....)
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17 years ago
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My deepest darkest secret is that I am thin but I eat really much 😲 😲
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17 years ago
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My deepest darkest secret is that I am thin but I eat really much 😲 😲
I do the same thing. Probably the fault of my fast metabolism and the fact I'm growing 1 inch ever 3 months.. (Seriously..)
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17 years ago
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My deepest darkest secret is that I am thin but I eat really much 😲 😲
I do the same thing. Probably the fault of my fast metabolism and the fact I'm growing 1 inch ever 3 months.. (Seriously..)
Same to me, I eat a big breakfast (a really big sandwich, half of a normal bread), a normal lunch, a great dinner before sleep, meals in the middle (a snack or something) and something to keep me going till 1-2 am on school days, and still as thin as a stick, metabolism what else!!
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17 years ago
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I don't think I have a deep dark secret. There are thousands of things that I regret that I have done, but nothing that would be considered deep and dark. I do have a fear of dying, but I think almost everyone has a fear about that on some level.
To tell you a secret to not make this post boring, is one I stole all the clothes out of the Quarterback locker. He had to walk to the nurses in nothing but a towel.I felt so bad till I told him that I did it.
To tell you what he made me do, would be another secret that I don't think I will tell.
EDIT: I wish I could eat what you guys could.
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17 years ago
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Umm....My deepest darkest secret is that I used to be a cutter....and I have this fear of dieing young and being alone! 😢
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17 years ago
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my deepest darkest secret...is that i had sex with my best friends girlfriend...and sister...my bigest fear...is getting an std...or having a kid
...Don't juudge me
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17 years ago
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Umm....My deepest darkest secret is that I used to be a cutter....and I have this fear of dieing young and being alone! 😢
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