I definitely don't have any deep, dark secret... at least I think so. The only thing that I have that's close to a secret is that I conduct conversations with myself, which usually goes like this:
Me: "God, you're so stupid."
Me: "Yeah yeah, I know already. How many times do you have to mention it?"
Me: "Obviously as many times as possible since you can't get it through your thick skull."
etc... But I'm sure it's pretty common, right?
My biggest fear would be seeing my life flash before me and realize I never did anything with it. Just another tombstone amongst all the others.
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Well I don't really have a deep or dark secret nor fear...
(except for the assassination of jfk, alien abduction of elvis and the illegal transportation of dioxine chickenmeat <== all mentioned = j/k)
...but there was a time in my life I was terrified of mirrors and reflections of my self (lasted for about a month!).
Well terrified is a big word; it's not that I would pee my pants because I'm a rational kind of guy that would say "if something comes out of there I just pound it in the face or I die trying
", but I still was tense when a mirror was nearby and I avoided any eyecontact.
The CAUSE?
It's not that I'm that ugly trust me
but it's all the cause of one hell of a WICKED NIGHTMARE. Really that was puberty for me. Those hormones cooked up something nasty !!
The DREAM: sidenote
During this dream I actually felt the fear. You probably had these/ this dream(s) were you had the feeling you were flying, but realy the feeling unlike the usual regular dream. Wel this nightmare was just like that, except the feeling wasn't that of flying but more like the feeling of fear and pumping adrenaline.
The DREAM: story
I don't remember what I was dreaming at first but I do know that it all started when I was staring in the mirror of my bedroom. I had a quite happy feeling and my mind was at peace, but all of a sudden the reflection of my face began to reform into some sort of voodoo-mask-disformation of my face. This monstrous face in the mirror was burning with rage and somehow I had trouble turning my head away... it was as if that disformed face was trying to suck me in by eyecontact. And on top of it... it seemed that this hiddeous thing in the mirror had the ability to come out of it !
I think I ran into the bathroom and locked myself up in the toilet... only to find that when I looked in the mirror there it happened again.. but this time my head started hurting as well.
So I ran into my parents bedroom to warn them, they both wook up immediatly. But my parents bedroom is surrounded by mirrors. (The clossets that the room is made up off have mirrors as doors)
Just giving one of the mirrors a simple glare while I was shouting my parents to get up was sufficient for it to happen all over again.. but this time it happened in all of the mirrors of those closets in that room. My eyes were connected with 'it', I remember having tunnelvision with only 'it' inside the tunnel.
My parents and I were able to get out of there even though it was close. My disformed voodoo face was able to completely get out of the mirror now. I can't remember the shape it took, but it was not a solid form, nor was the form like gas. But it brought fear to the core of my soul while my headache was getting worse. If I should give it a color red would be the most suiting I think.
Anyway we instantly decided the best option was to take my dad's car and get the hell out of there. No looking back, just running on towards the car outside. Once we were inside and got the engine running we felt kind of relieved, especialy I was Because even though those face-disformers were mysteriously not to overcome, they were not as fast as a car. A car with locked doors and windows, thus meaning they could at least not get inside.
While comming of our driveway (looking right & left for traffic offcourse) I look at the radio to turn on a happy tune, something to put our minds on something else. But instead of the hour (like 06:57) there were only three numbers... 666 !!
The last thing I remember was looking in the mirror (-> the one used to look behind the car) and seeing my face deforming again... the next moment I was sucked in it and woke up all sweaty and heavy breating.
The DREAM: sidenote²
* I remember seeing a movie once that (I think) ended with the radio numbers switching to 666 as well. But I defenitly saw that movie afterwards, so yes that movie had an extra scary factor
* The whole dream did not scary me because of the immortality of those monstrous faces, nor the bad outcomming. It was the disforming of my face itself. Each time I looked in that mirror my face deformed and I couldn't stop it nor look away. That feeling (ref. first sidenote)... and those eyes ..... damn!
*It took maybe a week before I regulary looked in mirrors again and probably up to a month to stop thinking about it.
(except for the assassination of jfk, alien abduction of elvis and the illegal transportation of dioxine chickenmeat <== all mentioned = j/k)
...but there was a time in my life I was terrified of mirrors and reflections of my self (lasted for about a month!).
Well terrified is a big word; it's not that I would pee my pants because I'm a rational kind of guy that would say "if something comes out of there I just pound it in the face or I die trying
", but I still was tense when a mirror was nearby and I avoided any eyecontact.The CAUSE?
It's not that I'm that ugly trust me
but it's all the cause of one hell of a WICKED NIGHTMARE. Really that was puberty for me. Those hormones cooked up something nasty !!The DREAM: sidenote
During this dream I actually felt the fear. You probably had these/ this dream(s) were you had the feeling you were flying, but realy the feeling unlike the usual regular dream. Wel this nightmare was just like that, except the feeling wasn't that of flying but more like the feeling of fear and pumping adrenaline.
The DREAM: story
I don't remember what I was dreaming at first but I do know that it all started when I was staring in the mirror of my bedroom. I had a quite happy feeling and my mind was at peace, but all of a sudden the reflection of my face began to reform into some sort of voodoo-mask-disformation of my face. This monstrous face in the mirror was burning with rage and somehow I had trouble turning my head away... it was as if that disformed face was trying to suck me in by eyecontact. And on top of it... it seemed that this hiddeous thing in the mirror had the ability to come out of it !
I think I ran into the bathroom and locked myself up in the toilet... only to find that when I looked in the mirror there it happened again.. but this time my head started hurting as well.
So I ran into my parents bedroom to warn them, they both wook up immediatly. But my parents bedroom is surrounded by mirrors. (The clossets that the room is made up off have mirrors as doors)
Just giving one of the mirrors a simple glare while I was shouting my parents to get up was sufficient for it to happen all over again.. but this time it happened in all of the mirrors of those closets in that room. My eyes were connected with 'it', I remember having tunnelvision with only 'it' inside the tunnel.
My parents and I were able to get out of there even though it was close. My disformed voodoo face was able to completely get out of the mirror now. I can't remember the shape it took, but it was not a solid form, nor was the form like gas. But it brought fear to the core of my soul while my headache was getting worse. If I should give it a color red would be the most suiting I think.
Anyway we instantly decided the best option was to take my dad's car and get the hell out of there. No looking back, just running on towards the car outside. Once we were inside and got the engine running we felt kind of relieved, especialy I was Because even though those face-disformers were mysteriously not to overcome, they were not as fast as a car. A car with locked doors and windows, thus meaning they could at least not get inside.
While comming of our driveway (looking right & left for traffic offcourse) I look at the radio to turn on a happy tune, something to put our minds on something else. But instead of the hour (like 06:57) there were only three numbers... 666 !!
The last thing I remember was looking in the mirror (-> the one used to look behind the car) and seeing my face deforming again... the next moment I was sucked in it and woke up all sweaty and heavy breating.
The DREAM: sidenote²
* I remember seeing a movie once that (I think) ended with the radio numbers switching to 666 as well. But I defenitly saw that movie afterwards, so yes that movie had an extra scary factor
* The whole dream did not scary me because of the immortality of those monstrous faces, nor the bad outcomming. It was the disforming of my face itself. Each time I looked in that mirror my face deformed and I couldn't stop it nor look away. That feeling (ref. first sidenote)... and those eyes ..... damn!
*It took maybe a week before I regulary looked in mirrors again and probably up to a month to stop thinking about it.
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I am Scared of the Dark . And roach's !
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well, dead fish? i'm ok wif it cuz i'm used to see them died
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
Well, I'm actually more afraid of them when they're floating in the tank, but I think what matters the most is whether you can see their eyes or not cuz I'm pretty sure that's what freaks me out about them the most (oh, and their floating bodies *shiver*). Like if the dead fish doesn't have a head and isn't floating in a tank, I won't be nearly as freaked out. The other day, my mom was eating her dinner in the living room and the chair she was sitting in was near a trash can, so I crossed the room to toss a piece of trash in it, but then I saw the dead fish on my mom's plate, freaked out and ran back across the room
I saw their eyes...!!! O.o
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well, dead fish? i'm ok wif it cuz i'm used to see them died
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
Well, I'm actually more afraid of them when they're floating in the tank, but I think what matters the most is whether you can see their eyes or not cuz I'm pretty sure that's what freaks me out about them the most (oh, and their floating bodies *shiver*). Like if the dead fish doesn't have a head and isn't floating in a tank, I won't be nearly as freaked out. The other day, my mom was eating her dinner in the living room and the chair she was sitting in was near a trash can, so I crossed the room to toss a piece of trash in it, but then I saw the dead fish on my mom's plate, freaked out and ran back across the room
I saw their eyes...!!! O.o
Oh yeah... how about dead sick ones with bloat? Their scales stick out like a open pine cone. I don't really care about it but it freaks the hell outta my sibling.
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well, dead fish? i'm ok wif it cuz i'm used to see them died
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
not to say i killed them or wat
but we'll see them dead in wet market rite?
Well, I'm actually more afraid of them when they're floating in the tank, but I think what matters the most is whether you can see their eyes or not cuz I'm pretty sure that's what freaks me out about them the most (oh, and their floating bodies *shiver*). Like if the dead fish doesn't have a head and isn't floating in a tank, I won't be nearly as freaked out. The other day, my mom was eating her dinner in the living room and the chair she was sitting in was near a trash can, so I crossed the room to toss a piece of trash in it, but then I saw the dead fish on my mom's plate, freaked out and ran back across the room
I saw their eyes...!!! O.o
Oh yeah... how about dead sick ones with bloat? Their scales stick out like a open pine cone. I don't really care about it but it freaks the hell outta my sibling.
That kind freaks me out too! It's like the stage right before they die, where they're struggling to keep swimming down, but it's too late cuz they're already losing control...
*shiver* BLECH! I have to put my feet up from the floor to keep from freaking out
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I'm still virgin.....to die virgin....T_T
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Deathly afraid of Spiders and Old People who drive.
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Snakes....... I once lost a girlfriend because she liked snakes and thought it would be funny to have one as a pet. She underestimated my total fear of snakes.
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My biggest fear right now is being killed by some deranged idiot like the one who shot up our county courthouse & killed three people and then himself last weekend. I walk past that courthouse every day on my way to work...it's going to be weird for a while, I think. 
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*shiver* BLECH! I have to put my feet up from the floor to keep from freaking out *looks over shoulder warily*
*looks over shoulder warily*wow........i din know fish could make someone freak out
wat about frog?? they hv lovely eyes......well, besides having slimy body n stufff
u know, i once saw the frog in the market.....it was skinned n hoping around alive WITHOUT its skin........which means pink flesh onli
i freaked out man.......i was like......omggg......they r evil for NOT killing the frog before skinnning it.....
until now i still rememebr how it looks like.......
btw, it happened 3 to 4 yrs ago.......
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Hmm...secret...i wish i could keep moving schools and just leave it all behind. I've been to three high schools and i tell everyone the third one was because it's closer to where my mum works, that's true, but i just have urges to keep meeting new people and this is the best way, it's so much fun to just make new friends and meet all kinds of people.
Fears...birds, lol, i am extremely scared of birds. Probably from when i was in primary school i had to walk past some trees where the magpies would swoop you, now i just don't want to be any where near birds so i chase them if they get near me wherever i am, lol.
Fears...birds, lol, i am extremely scared of birds. Probably from when i was in primary school i had to walk past some trees where the magpies would swoop you, now i just don't want to be any where near birds so i chase them if they get near me wherever i am, lol.
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My greatest fear is that I lose complete control over what I do, in everyway, like beeing paralysed or beeing restrained. It just freaks me out. I think it's because one time I was kinda teased at school by some dude, I was way stronger than him but I hated fighting so ignored it. The he threw an apple against my head, and when I looked up and saw his laughing face.. I just collapsed in a huge rage. It was like I had white and black flashes infront of my eyes for 2 seconds and then the only thing I felt was that the dude had to die. I ran to him and started hitting him like mad, for this i ended up beeing expelled and other stuff. I've always regretted what I did to the guy and it's also kinda my darkest secret .
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Secret?
hmmm......
Probably it would be that I still love my ex wife
but don't tell her or my girlfriends that
Fear?
Dying of old age alone
God I'm depressed now
well good thing I have my girlfriends to cheer me up
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hmmm......
Probably it would be that I still love my ex wife
but don't tell her or my girlfriends that
Fear?
Dying of old age alone
God I'm depressed now
well good thing I have my girlfriends to cheer me up
Last edited by anthon41772 at 9:23 am, May 24 2007
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