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Since they went to all that trouble to switch it, I really should have swallowed that broth,
This line struck me as an elegant reminder to show that Maomao does long for a different life, or in this case, ending it all.
Or am I reading into this line wrong? She does seem to have a masochistic streak when it comes to poisons.
She obviously doesn't enjoy her situation, previously she's had thoughts on the line of giving up the dream of another life. She seems to have somewhat settled in her role, but she also hints that what lies beyond eventual release from the harem is the tough life of the red light districts.
She hasn't struck me as suicidal or even depressed, but I guess anyone can feel the allure of such thoughts at times.