Hi,
So I've been looking for a Yaoi manga that is a collection of oneshots in one volume, all by the same author. The oneshots are all kind of dark, sad, and a little tragic (I think, at least that's what I remember). The art is very mature, clean cut, and really nice.
I remember being drawn to this particular yaoi, because of the fact that there was that one chapter (either 6 or 7, I forget), that was of the S&M variety, but not really like how most S&M yaoi manga are like.
Usually, the M doesn't want the S and rejects the pain and S&M advances.
However, this yaoi had the M searching out the S and asking him to hit him.

The oneshot starts out with a guy, the S, hitting and beating the hell out of somebody in a fight. His two companions tell him to stop because he's gonna kill the dude. But he's smiling, and happy, really into the beating. A salaryman wearing glasses passes this scene in the alleyway and ends up drugging the guy and taking him back to his place, and handcuffs him in his apartment. The salaryman is the guy's older sister's ex-fiance (i think), and they recognize each other. The guy says that he's a sick dude, and the salaryman asks him to hit him. The guy says okay, and as he hits him, the salaryman becomes aroused and erect. The guy begins verbally abusing him, and tells him to blow him off, and says he sucks- to which the salaryman replies by saying its his first time doing something like this. The salaryman tells him that he can do anything to him, but not to hit his face (because he has to go to work), and the guy realizes that this is arousing for him, and proceeds to verbally and sexually have his way with the salaryman.

yes, this yaoi was so fucking hot, i read that shit over like, five million times. but i forgot the name of the manga, and the name of the chapter that was the one shot inside the manga. (it was like 2, 3 years ago i read this)

any help would be appreciated!

Thanks!,
emiko

Is it Omoisugoshi mo Koi no Uchi chap 6?

Oh my god, yes!
Thank you so much!

I am eternally grateful