Im searching for yaoi/shounen ai manga where:

1. There is a couple, uke and seme. One day uke is raped not the seme did it but someone else.

or

2. Uke was raped/ forced to prostitution in the past

And there is the point: uke is afraid that seme maybe find him disgusting and doesn't want to tousch the uke anymore. (Of course seme doesn't think such thing. It's just uke's imaginary.) So uke think he is dirty and don't think he deserves seme
Is there such a manga?