I've been looking for this yaoi manga for years. I read this years ago so i only remember few of the story plot.

The plot was
Uke (high school student) coming back to his hometown. After he came back he always had a dream he was fucked by an unknown man every night in his room. When he wake up, the seme always had run away through his window. And not long after, he found out that it was not a dream, it was his childhood friend who he hasn't been seeing for a long time(seme, and also a high school student). After that they got closer and befriended again, and the uke found out that all these times the seme was always been raped by the uke's father starting from when he was a kid. There was a night where the uke woke up and hear some sex voice, that was his seme and father having sex in his father's bedroom. And later his father is dead i don't remember why and they got together, but the seme still traumatized, and they found the tape when the uke's father raped the seme for the fitst time when he was a kid.The beginning of the rape was when the seme and uke still a kid and play together, suddenly there was a car and scary men kidnapped the seme as they mistaken the seme for the uke, but the uke's father still rape the seme anyway. i think he blackmail the seme but i dont remember.

That was the only plot that i remembered. so can someone please help me to find the manga name? it would be very helpful thank you very much!!! 😁

Ima wa Tooi Natsu