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If You Hate Me So  
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Description
Minjae's quiet life turns upside down when he walks in on Hyung-jo masturbating to Jinhan. sleeping in the student lounge. Hyung-jo threatens Minjae to keep the incident a secret and to keep his distance from Jinhan., whom he has a crush on. Minjae soons finds himself in a twisted love triangle he also develops a crush for Jinhan, but at the same time... feels an unexplainable attraction to Hyung-jo.

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Type
Manhwa

Related Series
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Associated Names
Geureoke Naega Siltamyeon
If You Hate Me That Much
Если ты так сильно меня ненавидишь
そんなに俺が嫌いなら
如此讨厌我的话
그렇게 내가 싫다면

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Latest Release(s)
c.2-5 by Lezhin over 3 years ago
c.18.5 by Random Fujoshis over 4 years ago
c.18 by Random Fujoshis over 4 years ago
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Status
in Country of Origin
26 Chapters Main story (Complete)
23 Chapters Side story (Complete)

Season 1: 15 Chapters + Epilogue (Complete) 1~15
Side story (1-3): 3 Chapters (Complete) 16~18
Season 2: 11 Chapters + Epilogue (Complete) 19~29
Side story (4-23): 20 Chapters (Complete) 30~49

Completely Scanlated?
Yes

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Average: 7.1 / 10.0 (130 votes)
Bayesian Average: 6.99 / 10.0
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Last Updated
April 17th 2021, 11:04pm PST


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Year
2015

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Serialized In (magazine)
Lezhin (Lezhin)

Licensed (in English)
Yes

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Activity Stats (vs. other series)
Weekly Pos #579 increased(+139)
Monthly Pos #1383 increased(+234)
3 Month Pos #2430 decreased(-79)
6 Month Pos #2693 increased(+130)
Year Pos #1827 decreased(-486)

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On 219 reading lists
On 105 wish lists
On 320 completed lists
On 28 unfinished lists
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ONLY the second couple story!!  
by Sunfae
April 11th, 2021, 2:19pm
Rating: N/A
If only I can rate the stories separately.

The second couple story is 8.7/10 if not higher. Loved the character of Jinhan so much, the backstory, the character development, everything. He deserved to be happy and get over his trauma, thank god for Kisun's existence (loved him so much as well) they both balanced each other out and the bossy mature side of Kinsun was much needed in Jinhan's life. Loved them so much, I would re-read their story anytime.

Noooow let's give a bit of attention to the first couple, the one the main description above is about. The whole relationship, the characters and the story were TERRIBLE. I read a lot of unconventional, psychological, dark, toxic stories before and I liked them because simply they were conveyed exactly as that, conventional, dark, toxic and deals with psychological aspects. But this one was not that at all, it went from r*pe and assault to "wow you're so pretty you look like a girl I guess I like you" and " oh really, I guess I forgive you and I like you too uwu" It was awful, terribly written and painful to read. 1/10

I hate that the two stories are clamped together. I guess I'll skip the rating for this one.
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i Love this manhwa  
by Miachann
July 26th, 2020, 10:23pm
Rating: N/A
I love this manhwa, i read this few years ago.. at first this manhwa hurt me so much, ugh the few first chapter makes my maso heart suffer but need moar at same time lololol even this hurt so much, but still i finished this, this manhwa good tho and im maso.. and the art is kinda different with his other work.. but still good, in this manhwa we can see how manhwaga developing his art style, but my fav one work from this manhwaga still love is an illusion.. Dojin and hyesung its soso adorable both in this manhwa or in 'love is an illusion'
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One hell of werid manhwa  
by Ah_Cat
June 9th, 2020, 3:18pm
Rating: N/A
Honestly, I don't even know what has been happening in the first couple story. How could anyone think that all the rape was fine and they can be happy later? Minjae has a Stockholm Syndrome, seriously. This was just wrong.
The second couple though, that one was interesting. Jinhan was a crazy character, broken in so many ways that even he wasn't taking himself seriously. Yet, he still wanted Hyung-jo to be happy,
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which ended up in him losing the only light in his life. Kisan on the other hand... he was the main bad guy who was so in love with him that he couldn't even be with him. And this is probably what draw Jinhan to him so much. He also couldn't really get mad at him for all the things he has done. While Hyung-jo was Jinhan's light, Kisan is the thing that let him stands on his own. He doen't take his bullshit, even though he loves him and Jinhan can be his pricky, terrible self around him. Yet when he almost lost him, he litteraly went crazy. Jinhan is self-destructing, Kisan had no other way but to be cold in order to get him on his feet even for awhile. That was priceless.

Still, I like Hye-sung and Dojin's relationship the most. I wish it had a proper side story series, not an alternative omegarverse story. The couple from this universe diserved better!

I wonder if there really will be a 3rd season, just like the mangaka wrote.

... Last updated on June 9th, 2020, 3:20pm
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I liked the first couple better  
by BlackBelle
November 24th, 2019, 7:34pm
Rating: 8.0 / 10.0
Despite the first couple being born of misunderstanding and rape, I found them very compelling. (See Himeowchama’ review for why, because I agree with it!). Second story, not so much. I’m not big on slutty ukes, even ones with backstories. That second story was way too angsty and melodramatic for me and I think it would have been much better just leaving that story off.
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What the fvck  
by genie195
July 3rd, 2018, 11:22pm
Rating: 4.0 / 10.0
It's unfortunate the nice art is wasted on such a heinous plot. I don't think I've encountered such a painfully drawn out rape storyline. I've been tired of this theme and this story really just pushed me over the edge.
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Secondary couples  
by 801crazed
April 9th, 2018, 2:53pm
Rating: 7.8 / 10.0
Like the other commenter said, this manhwa DOES get a lot better (the main couple starts as explicit rape).

I found the secondary couples much more interesting. Their backgrounds are much more fleshed out and their storylines are more intriguing, imo. I liked Jinhan and Kisan?s story but my favourite was Hye-sung and Dojin?s story.

... Last updated on April 9th, 2018, 2:55pm
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It gets better  
by Himeowchama
May 19th, 2017, 6:19am
Rating: 9.5 / 10.0
Idk what I felt when I read this at 6 am without proper sleep that night (maybe I was feelng a little bit sentimental?) but I gave it a chance anyway and read it until the latest update (chap 18). I think I read this around March when it still had 7 chapters. I didn't really follow the manga and just kept checking it's latest updates. Kinda forgot about it and it released a new chapter today and read it out of curiosity. And I tell you, I have no regrets reading this one.
It had the premise that I really hated: rape as a start of relationship. I hated Hidoku Shinaide at first unti the succeeding chapters, but I was really curious of the story but a voice in my head kept hating every chapter of it. I had to read a chapter around vol 5 in advance just to convince myself that it gets better. And my hatred started to dissipate when the mangaka FINALLY opened the topic as how Maya and Nemu's relationship started. AND IT TOOK HER 6 VOLUMES TO DO IT.

BUT THIS MANHWA. THIS GOLDMINE MANHWA WAS DIFFERENT. You could really see Hyung-Jo being apologetic just after their relationship started. Personally, Minjae is such an ideal uke. He's a wuss, but he has courage at the same time. Also, he doesn't blame Hyung-Jo at all, but he doesn't spoil Hyung-Jo too much and wants to be treated with care (unlike some uke who'll just say: Whatever you do to me is okay like WTF BRUHHH TREASURE YOURSELF A LI'L BIT, YEAH??) That was why when Minjae said "Just treat me with care, okay?" I WAS LIKE BROOO I LIKE YOU ALREADYYY. AND I LOVE MINJAE WHEN EVEN THOUGH HYUNGJO IS KIND TO HIM AND ALL, MINJAE IS STILL CONSIDERATE TOWARDS HYUNGJO!!! Minjae has this one redeeming character towards the series: he doesn't want to hurt people to the point that he would lie.
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a) when he kept it a secret from Hyungjo that Hyung was actually active in his sex life + he bats for the other team lol AND b) when they had sex in Behind Story 2 when Hyungjo asked Minjae if the sex was good, his thoughts were "it's a little tiring" but he didn't say it out loud and said that "It was very good".
I love it when Minjae doesn't abuse/take advantage of Hyungjo's kindness.

And I love it when he's reactions are realistic.
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When Hyungjo started avoiding him bc he was ashamed of his past actions, he wasn't insecure and didn't get mad at Hyungjo (unlike mediocre ukes out there). Instead, he comforted Hyungjo and told him that they're okay. He is such an uke I love him <3

And I loooove how he isn't a tsundere that would keep saying "No" (when it's reallyy obvious that some uke are just bashful) after they got in a relationship. I think that's the reason why Hyung-Jo would take his rejection seriously and would stop the moment Minjae would show even the least bit of resistance. AND THE SEME I SWEAR. ASIDE FROM HIS ANGER ISSUES (and obliviousness), HYUNG JO IS THE IDEAL SEME. Because a) He doesn't force (after their relationship started, of course lol) Minjae. b) He would tease Minjae at first but if Minjae doesn't like it, he'll stop, apologize, and say "I'm kidding" c) He forgives himself but he doesn't forget what he did to Minjae at first d) He spoils Minjae. e) He's sincere and not calculative f) He's not one of those sadistic ruts that likes it if their uke would cry. He would even ask Minjae "please stop crying" because he doesn't want his loved one to be hurt and MOST IMPORTANTLY, HE TREATS MINJAE WITH UTMOST CARE!!! I JUST LOVE HIM AS A SEME!!! WHEN MINJAE WOULD SAY THAT HE'S (even just a little bit!!!) SCARED, HE'LL DO EVERYTHING JUST TO COMFORT MINJAE!!!
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WHEN MINJAE SAID THAT HE WAS SCARED IN DOING A BACKSIDE POSITION (idk what position it's called lolol just when the uke facing the bed and the seme tops the bottom) AND CRIED, HYUNG-JO WAS REALLYYYY WORRIED AND PULLED OUT!!! AND HE WAS REALLY APOLOGETIC WHEN THE REASON WHY MINJAE WAS SCARED WAS BECAUSE HE RAPED HIM A FEW CHAPS AGO!!! AND ALSO WHEN HYUNGJO MENTIONED THAT HE WANTED TO LOCK MINJAE UP BC HE'S JUST TOO CUTE, MINJAE LAUGHED AND SAID IT'S A LITTLE SCARY, HE TOOK BACK HIS WORDS AND SAID THAT HE DOESN'T REALLY MEAN WHAT HE JUST SAID AND SAID HE'S SORRY!!!!!


I hate "cool" semes who won't lose their "coolness" even in the middle of sex with uke. And I also don't like wimp semes who can't even protect their uke. It's a perfect balance for Hyungjo lol. In terms of the uke, I hate ukes who are too bashful with their feelings all over the place. But I also don't like ukes who are stronger than their seme lol. Minjae was a perfect uke because his reactions are realistic and he knows how to react to Hyungjo lol. Maybe that's why I love this manga soooo much because the seme and the uke are both ideals to their role! This manhwa is probably one of those asian comics where I don't mind if their not a reversible couple (I'm a fan of seke couples!!!!!)

EUHHH IT'S JUST TOO CUTE WHEN SEMES SPOIL THEIR UKE AND TREAT THEM WITH UTMOST CARE!!!! I CAN'T GET ENOUGH WITH THIS MANHWA!!!

To summarize: READ IT BECAUSE IT GETS F BETTER!!!! (+ the updates are fast, courtesy of Random Fujoshis hehe kudos to you guys!!!!)

... Last updated on May 20th, 2017, 12:01pm
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violent repeated rape  
by Junjou Danny
April 5th, 2017, 8:31pm
Rating: N/A
Starting in chapter four, what looked like a suspenseful manga with some misunderstanding and objectionable behaviour turns into serial rape- violent, verbally abusive, and with a victim who demonstrates physical and psychological pain and is roughly two-thirds the size of the assailant. Why? It's a waste of skillful art and an ability to plot (at least in the initial chapters). By now Yaoi should be getting beyond rape-as-love/desire. The victim keeps coming back for more, which just seems like an excuse to draw more rape scenes. I've read a number of questionable manga, but this stood out as taking joy in pain and humiliation. If this is a trigger for you, stay well away.
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