Ahhh, so angsty! Made me cry my heart out, just the way I like it! I always love manga in which the semes are jerks and bully their ukes till they're tormented enough tho think "he hates me? I don't like that" and fall for them! It's my kind of storyline!
Sawatari is indescribably amazing. The kind of seme I adore, who's suppressing his feelings for so long and so bad, he can't stand it anymore and all his anger turns into lust and force. I feel for him, really. Possessive and provocative are just my favorite qualities in semes - IF they're qualities =X
Ayumu's cute too, and I especially like that he reats rape AS RAPE - not that I mind...seriously, why do people hate non-con so much? It's so typical in yaoi you should probably get used to it and it's usually what makes the more psychologically developed plots to be so good. Anyways, he's NOT okay with it, he didn't like it and he gets nervous around Sawatari after it happens. That's reeeeally something for yaoi! And it's even more realistic since they have to actually deal with it once they're a couple.
I hate Taka, but that's probably because I didn't read "Self Portrait", so my vision of him's only as "the idiotic friend who's so dense he keeps touching and involuntarily playing with the feelings of the guy who loves him". Also, I totally love Shizuka!! She's just like me~! xD
As for the art, it was astonishingly beautiful, Sawatari was hot as hell.
And I simply LOVED the metaphor at the end of chapter 5: "That was the last kiss that tasted like cigarettes". It meant so many things at the same time: Sawatari stopped smoking because Ayumu asked him to and, more than that, that he started to care about things around him, as the cigarettes themselves where a metaphor to him not giving a damn about his surroundings. Also, it meant that they had a lot of other kissed for Ayumu to make that statement ♥
I do wish it was longer, because they finally got together and we didn't get much of the taste of that, but even so, it was perfect to end just there. That's one of the things that made it special, because it would turn into another sweet and ordinary love story otherwise. I especially liked that to give us the slight taste of their lovey-dovey couple's life, Itsuki-sensei made the smut convert all the sweet feelings, instead of showing cliché situations. Their love was pretty intense and we could see how deeply Sawatari loved Ayumu and how much Ayumu got touched by that.
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