Woo Hyung’s life has hit rock bottom. He’s traumatized after several days of being imprisoned and raped by his brother-in-law, an event that eventually left him both wifeless and jobless. His only way of coping is sex and two very different men who can provide exactly that show up in his life. Caught between the two people who each drag him into their orbit, Hyung sinks deeper into obsession fueled by his trauma, and it seems like there’s no escape from his despair…or is there?
Original Webtoon:
Lezhin, Bomtoon
Official Translations:
English, French, Japanese, Spanish
Editor's Comment:
This comic contains depictions of non-consensual sex and themes that some readers may find uncomfortable.
81 Chapters (Complete)





Just a warning to those considering reading this, it's a pretty dark webtoon with a lot of triggering scenes.. Definitely deserving of the psychological tag, and very upfront about the abuse that Hyung goes through.
I think it decently portrayed the aftermath of such a traumatic event.. How Hyung was desperate to find ways to cope and to feel "normal" again. How he felt like he couldn't seek professional help because of societal views on mental disorders in Korea. He has a hard time reading other people's feelings so he ends up blaming himself for all his failed relationships. Even going so far as holding himself responsible for the things that Noyeol did to him.
When they started talking about how Hyung was unable to love anyone I got the feeling that maybe he was aromantic and thats why he struggled with all of his relationships. The fact that Noa and Noyeol both tried to use that to their advantage was just gross.
I'm glad that Sujo and Boguk put Hyung's well being over their own personal interests and pulled him out of that mess in the end. However, the ending was a little too brief. It would've been nice to see how all the characters turned out, and to see Hyung's recovery process. Either way, it's a relief that this wasn't like other BL manga/manhwa where rape is excused or flipped into some love story.
It's such a good webtoon and take trauma and rape so seriously, it's so obvious author search about it and done such a good job , this webtoon deserve more attention for all things author put there and clearly say to us take our traumatic experience seriously and go to therapist if things getting so bad for u.
I love how author point out at how not just society but government in sk treat ppl with medical records so badly and blame them.
There was a dialogue by Hyung after Boguk blame him why he try to treat himself instead going to a therapist when he clearly is a patient and Hyung said : " with a therapy record, I won't be reinstated even after my disciplinary leave ... Having a medical record is somehow worse than having a criminal one."
I'm totally shocked after this part and start to respect the author so much.
Totally recommend it but remember it's full of triggered scenes so read it if u can handle it bcz even I felt disturbed in many parts , it's so heavy and I'm so sure I will never read it again bcz it's so painful.
... Last updated 2 years ago
We were robbed! I needed side stories and we never saw certain scenes again! Wahhhhhh
As someone with actual CPTSD, this manhwa depiction of it.. is the best one so far..
Although the pacing lags a little in the middle, pull through to see an absolutely marvellous final arc.
This is a story very centered on PTSD, anxiety and depression but it doesn't spoon-feed you those themes either. The author trusts their audience to be intelligent, engaged people with reading comprehension (not everybody is so avoid the comments on reading sites unless you're looking for victim blaming...!)
It isn't ONLY about mental illness, either. It's got such excellent banter between the main characters and is one of the rare works that will interrupt a sex scene in service of a good laugh between the characters or even a trivial quibble, making them seem all the more real and all the closer as people.
The art is a love-it-or-hate-it situation and I LOVE it. It's grounded with fantastic, beautiful anatomy, lovely strong lines, and expressive posing.