Hi! I have a kind of specific request I guess, that hopefully won't squick people out too bad.

I'm looking for a yaoi manga where a main character has been abused as a child, sexually or otherwise. Preferably sexually (that sounds awful!). Maybe to do with recovery, or maybe the character is in a relationship and is having trouble (flashbacks to the abuse during sex, etc) with it.

I'd really like it if the relationship between the main characters was realistic and healthy (meaning no rape) but I know that's not always easy to find with yaoi, so I'll take what I can get. The character who was abused can be the seme or the uke, it doesn't matter to me.

Thank you!
(hopefully i did this right, this is my first post :x)

Acid Town
Zankoku na Kami ga Shihaisuru Not really about recovery since it's happening all through the series, but very realistic sexual abuse. The best there is, really 🙂
Koukyuu no Arika

I love this theme too. There are more things like that in gay novels though, so maybe you could try that too 🙂

Obsessed Yaoi Fan for 7 years ;D Way to go, me!

Ohhhh I love those!!!

Abusive Parents (Not sexual):
Boku no Shiru Anata no Hanashi, first story
Hinata
Ikusen no Yoru
Kimi wa Boku o Suki ni Naru
Little Butterfly
Nanadome no Gomenne
Aijin wa Korosareru
Egomix
Heaven's Love

Abusive Guardians (Sexual):
Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai
Jinsei wa Barairo Da, the oneshot Say Yes
Kanashii (Itoshii) Kotoba, can't remember if it was sexual or not...
Cut
New York New York
XY
Double Face (YAMANE Ayano)

Child Abuse (Not by parents or guardians):
Nemureru Hana
My Eternal Master
Tetsu x Rika, incest...and pretty fucked up!
Silence (AKIYAMA Koito), last story
Kago no Tori, sad and depressing though...
Kowarekake no Omocha
Sakura-Gari
Corsair
Brother x Brother

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K n e e l .... This is the difference between your and my eye-level.
Rai from Noblesse

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Kaze to Ki no Uta 😢

Tantei Aoneko - not clear, but the main character was probably abused by the man who abducted and raised him, then later as a teenager by another man.

Patalliro! - Bancoran, the gay James Bond, we learn was raped by one of his mother's boyfriends.

Thank you so much everyone! I appreciate it, and I'll probably end up reading them all (: