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From Blissful Sin:

Track team member Kashiwagi Ayumu has put aside his secret feelings for his classmate, Shinohara Takahito.
One day, his track club senpai, Sawatari Atsushi, realizes Ayumu’s feelings, and embraces Ayumu against his will in attempt to cure his own boredom.
Sawatari seems cold hearted, but suddenly reveals a tenderness to the resisting Ayumu, but…?!


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v.1 c.Extra (end) by Blissful Sin (1916d ago)
v.1 c.5 by Blissful Sin (1923d ago)
v.1 c.4 by Blissful Sin (2105d ago)
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1 Volume (Complete)

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Average: 8.2 / 10.0 (469 votes)
Bayesian Average: 8.11 / 10.0
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June 25th 2014, 6:22am PST



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Craft (Taiyou Tosho)

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Digital Manga Guild (1 Volume - Complete/Digital)

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Cute, and definitely far from "Awful"!!!   
Rating: 8.0 / 10.0
by Discordia
June 9th, 2013, 9:32am
This is kind of a reply to the comment from "landbound"
I think your opinion is quite far from the actual scenario.
though it is true that at one point he does get raped and it is a rather traumatizing experience for him, he never really "HATES" his senpai! rather he finds himself more bothered about being treated as a "toy" (as he assumes he is) than the actual act.

all in all, this is a sweet story about a high school brat who doesn't know how to express his love for his cute kohai and due to jealousy, he finds himself treating that kohai worse and worse everyday in a desperate attempt to make him turn his gaze away from his friend and direct it at him.

the reason I gave this an 8, is because the plot is not very original, but the storry is presented in a very appealing way and the art is also quite nice.

... Last updated on June 9th, 2013, 9:34am
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Rating: 2.0 / 10.0
by landbound
August 16th, 2012, 2:43am
I read through Self Portrait and thought the little gay guy with glasses was really cute, and so I was sad when he got pushed off to the side. I saw it coming, but I still had to hope, y'know?

So naturally I was excited to hear about this sequel featuring him. Instead I was just horrified. It quickly dissolves into a rape-is-love dynamic where Ayumu is abused, blackmailed, and is regularly raped time and again while having his nose rubbed in how his best friend will never love him back--how he'll be hated if anyone finds out he's gay.

I thought it had some potential, but instead it just resorted to tired cliches without any actual development. Just a very sweet, cute boy being literally raped by a violent sadist with absolutely no redeeming qualities, who hates his rapist's guts until a very forced and sudden turnaround.

This has been the single most upsetting thing I've read in a long while, and not in a good way. It this lacks the sense of self-awareness and depth that would be needed to make it anything other than deplorable.

... Last updated on December 15th, 2012, 2:11am
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Best of the 3!   
Rating: 9.0 / 10.0
by Namiya
June 27th, 2012, 4:15am
This is the best out of the 3 related mangas.
It's worth it to read the two prequels even if they're not that great

This is the story of the blonde megane boy in the first manga who has a secret crush on his homophobic best friend. The characters all reappear.
While this manga also (like April 4th) contains rape, it is so much better handled here and isn't an annoying part of the story like in the other one.

The story is good, exciting, dramatic and keeps being interesting and the characters are all very lovable and well thought out.

Read this! Especially if you read her older manga (with way old art style!) "Self Portrait" first and you liked the side character who is the protagonist here!
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I really liked it   
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by Lilyanna08
April 23rd, 2012, 2:36am
Despite the rape theme I didn't have any suffocating impression while reading it. It wasn't as carefree as Self Portrait and somehow addictive. I really appreciated main characters as they were nicely drawn and were rather profound. I definitely recommend it.
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Rating: 9.0 / 10.0
by sofistree
August 24th, 2011, 5:18pm
At first I didn't want to like it, because as a rule I don't like/read rape stories or ones with uber possessive semes. This story has both. But both characters are unhinged enough that I wasn't too put off by it.

The art is lovely - I like it better than the author's older style.

... Last updated on August 24th, 2014, 4:07pm
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Loved it!!   
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by Gattaca88
July 28th, 2011, 5:04pm
I tried to hate this manga but I can't! I loved it so much. The art is beautiful and clear. This has everything I need in yaoi, such as passion, possession and love. Every time Ayumu and Sawatari were together, my heart skipped a beat because they were so sexy. The ending showed that their love is beautiful and they belong together. I can come to this again and again.

... Last updated on September 2nd, 2011, 2:34pm
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Rating: 3.0 / 10.0
by lifeincircuit
June 25th, 2011, 11:52pm
Typical rape to love yaoi storyline. Do no want. Sawatari is insanely unlikeable. This feels like the setup story for a manga where Ayumu is rescued from an abusive relationship by some mature boy. There's just no way he could ever have a functional relationship with Sawatari. I am not always opposed to rape or dysfunctional relationships in manga, but this one was handled horribly. It had no depth at all, just stupid, worn out cliches. I thought Ayumu was adorable, so it's a shame.
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I reeeeeally liked it!   
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by kurosu_yuuki
April 17th, 2011, 2:59am
Ahhh, so angsty! Made me cry my heart out, just the way I like it! I always love manga in which the semes are jerks and bully their ukes till they're tormented enough tho think "he hates me? I don't like that" and fall for them! It's my kind of storyline!

Sawatari is indescribably amazing. The kind of seme I adore, who's suppressing his feelings for so long and so bad, he can't stand it anymore and all his anger turns into lust and force. I feel for him, really. Possessive and provocative are just my favorite qualities in semes - IF they're qualities =X

Ayumu's cute too, and I especially like that he reats rape AS RAPE - not that I mind...seriously, why do people hate non-con so much? It's so typical in yaoi you should probably get used to it and it's usually what makes the more psychologically developed plots to be so good. Anyways, he's NOT okay with it, he didn't like it and he gets nervous around Sawatari after it happens. That's reeeeally something for yaoi! And it's even more realistic since they have to actually deal with it once they're a couple.

I hate Taka, but that's probably because I didn't read "Self Portrait", so my vision of him's only as "the idiotic friend who's so dense he keeps touching and involuntarily playing with the feelings of the guy who loves him". Also, I totally love Shizuka!! She's just like me~! xD

As for the art, it was astonishingly beautiful, Sawatari was hot as hell.

And I simply LOVED the metaphor at the end of chapter 5: "That was the last kiss that tasted like cigarettes". It meant so many things at the same time: Sawatari stopped smoking because Ayumu asked him to and, more than that, that he started to care about things around him, as the cigarettes themselves where a metaphor to him not giving a damn about his surroundings. Also, it meant that they had a lot of other kissed for Ayumu to make that statement ♥

I do wish it was longer, because they finally got together and we didn't get much of the taste of that, but even so, it was perfect to end just there. That's one of the things that made it special, because it would turn into another sweet and ordinary love story otherwise. I especially liked that to give us the slight taste of their lovey-dovey couple's life, Itsuki-sensei made the smut convert all the sweet feelings, instead of showing cliché situations. Their love was pretty intense and we could see how deeply Sawatari loved Ayumu and how much Ayumu got touched by that.
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the actual manga... what else?   
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by deblemon
April 10th, 2011, 11:38am
Ok so the part where he was raped was wrong, but hell i just love it, it's my favorite manga of hers from time to time i go and read it and i always love it, it is very angsty but it's very lovable because turns out Sawatari wasn't just a bastard he was actually in love with him and i liked this one way better than 'self portrait' loved the way he turned out to be a uke
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Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by Shailley
April 10th, 2011, 3:00am
I don't typically like this kind of shounen-ai. Normally the possesive lover ticks me off and I stop reading because he's being way to much of a bully and I can't picture him having any feeling for the uke. But this one actually gave me the suspcion that the possesive seme really did love the uke.

That, and the fact that rarely can I find a manga that makes my stomach twist into happy knots, and this one did just that.
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