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Bokura no Koi wa Shi ni Itaru Yamai no You de  
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As children, twins Umi and Sora became acquainted with a four-year old Beniko. Years later, Umi has moved away, and Sora confesses to Beniko that he'll propose to her when she turns 18. But when Sora dies in a traffic accident, why does Umi appear before Beniko looking and acting just like Sora?


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Bokura no Koi wa Shi ni Itaru Yamai no Youde
Our Love is as Painful as Reaching Death
Zerrissene Seelen

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v.2 c.Part 3 by Antisense Scanslations (18d ago)
v.2 c.Part 2 by Antisense Scanslations (24d ago)
v.2 c.Part 1 by Antisense Scanslations (186d ago)
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3 Volumes (Complete)

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Average: 7.6 / 10.0 (116 votes)
Bayesian Average: 7.42 / 10.0
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Last Updated
August 5th 2015, 11:01am PST



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Not for everyone, but I found it enjoyable   
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
by alicewhite3151998
July 18th, 2015, 8:18am
Bokura No Koi Wa Shi Ni Itaru Yamai No You De is not for everyone, especially with the plot being as dark as it. (By reading the first few chapters you can already tell how the manga is going to further conduct itself.)
Though this manga might not be for everyone, I found it to be a very enjoyable read. It's a story with a fast moving the plot packed with drama that never seems to subside.
My thoughts on the characters:
Beniko: hasn't annoyed me so far, so good for her. Her character isn't the most stable and she is pretty much willing to put up with Umi's tourture due to guilt.
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
he's dead already, and when he was alive he was a pretty good guy with a solid relationship with Beniko. But when he dies problems arise.

Umi: devious, manipulating, conniving. How is it that hes so smart and cunning when plotting against Beniko, but fails to realize his own feelings for her?

Spoiler (mouse over to view)
I really want to see if/how Umi finally realizes that his twisted feelings really translates to obsessively loving Beniko; and if Beniko will accept Umi.

--Although this manga is not completely scanned I am eager for the next update.
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Rating: N/A
by anngeelaah
September 15th, 2013, 10:27pm
Yes, I want moreeeeeee. I want to know the ending and why You-Know-Who is treating her like that. There must be a reason and I can't wait to know. Please finish releasing the manga. sad
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No really guys, you have to read until the very end   
Rating: N/A
by fictionalscience
August 21st, 2013, 4:46am
And I'm not saying that because it's a particularly good manga or anything. It's pretty good. That guy is obviously epic-cray. But there's a twist in the very end (even though it doesn't seem like a very well-thought of twist). Other than that, I'm a tiny bit pissed that the girl keeps getting stripped, but the guy is always fully clothed (in his uniform, every friggin time) *facepalm*

... Last updated on August 21st, 2013, 4:48am
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Rating: N/A
by Liinah
June 5th, 2013, 2:11pm
I don't consider this to be sick like some, but I do understand it's probably due its genre. People come across shoujos always expecting happy-ish stories. Still, this doesn't make the manga any better. It has a different aspect, but it's not enough. Beniko is just plain boring. She's weak and can only hold onto her memories and try to understand Umi's hate towards her when she could just ignore it so she wouldn't "suffer" by remembering her loved one, since it seemed to be so painful to her seeing Umi acting like Sora. Umi on the other hand, started out as a nice character.
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By any means I refer to "nice" as personality wise, but about the character itself. He wanted Beniko to suffer, it was entertaining seeing how he was dealing with his own pain by making her pay for it. However at some point it got a bit predictable. Umi had this look in his face that showed how deep down he didn't want to hurt the girl. If it turns out that he really liked her ever since they were kids, he'll keep torturing her, but at some point they'll turn into lovers. If it's like this, the ending will be definitely terrible for me.

The art is nothing outstanding, normal for shoujos.

... Last updated on June 5th, 2013, 2:15pm
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What can I say?   
Rating: N/A
by TheDreamHare
February 10th, 2013, 11:24pm
I enjoy these types of stories.
It probably has something to do with the artwork, which I believe is pretty decent. If the story were drawn another way, I would have not continued reading...or maybe I would, just because.
I hope someday we'll see the rest of the chapters.
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Sick but decadent   
Rating: N/A
by 1122shadows
August 30th, 2012, 9:59am
I think the story has a very strong love-hate component and if that isnít your cup of tea or your bowl of rice then you should skip this. On the other hand, Umi is a twin that you probably will never forget and his drive for revenge against his brotherís girlfriend, Beniko is anything but typical for a shoujo romance which is why I would recommend it. While Benikoís loss and desperation for her dead boyfriend, Sora, just makes you hate Umi for what he does to her.
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Rating: 5.0 / 10.0
by kaidiego
May 8th, 2012, 9:26am
I have goten to nr. 8. I wont continue reading. I feel the main character is to plain and week... and the twin brother is just to sick and perverse for me. I have no problem with antiheroes and stuff like that. But this guy is inhumanly sick.
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Masochistic love.   
Rating: 7.0 / 10.0
by jnatsumi
May 3rd, 2012, 4:51pm
This manga is dark. Be warn. There will be some explicit scenes too-- it is smut afterall.
It's about obsessive love.
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
between Beniko and Sora (mutual, but not that obsessive, on Sora's part. very strong bond). and between Beniko and Umi, one-sided on Umi's side... for now, i think. and obsessive brother complex between Umi and Sora, again on Umi's side.

It's twisted with lots of drama.
I don't fancy the art that much. It's okay. Not too bad. Not that good either.
I think I have something for mangas about masochistic love or just plain painful love stories. Those, like this one, tend to be very emotional. Because of that, not everyone would like this manga.
If you are looking for light and fluffy, this won't be it for you.
It's labeled as shoujo, but it's also labeled as psychological, smut, and tragedy. so yea. keep that in mind.
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Very Interesting   
Rating: 8.0 / 10.0
by Sakura29
April 13th, 2012, 6:41pm
The plot is very intriguing and the mangaka has managed to pack a lot of drama, tragedies and twists into just eight chapters. The plot is really great but the characters are okay. I already love Umi with his dark and twisted mind, plotting his every move. Which I guess is something that really appeals to me. Beniko is alright compared to the typical bug-eyed, naive shoujo lead but I wish she would just get over and accept that Sora is dead. Then I compare her with other shoujo leads that have lost someone, who is definitely more important then a boyfriend, and seemed to cope with it better than her. So GET OVER IT! The art is very pretty and will certainly not burn your eyes.
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Rating: N/A
by LiitoJ
November 6th, 2011, 12:53pm
this is so-so for me at the moment.
i liked that the couple is actually genuine, i don't know, it made me feel so fluffy inside to see that they actually had a history, it's not a brainless relationship.

Spoiler (mouse over to view)
in part 7, i thought Umi was kinda psycho-ish. putting her ring in his mouth, fingering her and then having sex. isn't he raping her this way then?
i felt sorry for the main character at this point sad

Beniko needs to get over it and accept the fact that
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
Sora is dead
and if this is going to turn out like a typical shoujo, then
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
she's probably going to listen to everything Umi says just for a dead guy.
i dunno, i'll just see how this goes.

the artwork is the only thing that's making me continue reading this.

... Last updated on November 6th, 2011, 12:56pm
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