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Ai wa Doko Itta?  
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Takayama is gay. While at work he begins to take note of successful and peerless Ishikawa, whom he eyes hungrily. Ishikawa finds out that Takayama is gay when he sees him in a compromising position with a hook-up, but surprisingly he does not out him at work. When a deal of Ishikawa's goes bad, he is infuriated. In a fit of rage, Ishikawa forces himself on Takayama. Takayama decides that he can forgive him for this one-time incident, but can this sordid physical relationship continue?


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Ai wa Doko Itta
Where Did Love Go?
Where has Love Gone?

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Latest Release(s)
v.1 c.2-5 + Extra (end) by Fantasy Shrine over 13 years ago
v.1 c.1 by Fantasy Shrine over 13 years ago
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1 Volume (Complete)

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Average: 7.8 / 10.0 (278 votes)
Bayesian Average: 7.67 / 10.0

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June 17th 2020, 8:58am PST



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Daria (Frontier Works)

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June (Complete/Print)

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by Himeowchama
April 10th, 2017, 12:16pm
Rating: 2.0 / 10.0
How could anyone forget the rape that happened?!?!After the first scene, any kind of fluff was discarded in my perspective. It kind of overlaps the rape that fking happened. Also, as much as the uke was smart and dealt with things in a very sensible manner, he fell in love with the rapist at the end of the first chapter. Im sorry wat

... Last updated on April 10th, 2017, 12:19pm
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I don't know  
by toastmuncher
January 8th, 2017, 12:40am
Rating: N/A
It's like the rape never happened. The description had me, "lol wut?" and I would never read this but the positive rating and my determination to finish what I start kept me going, and honestly this wasn't so bad as far as rape driven plots are concerned. As I said in the start, it's like the rape never happened. The characters reactions are cute and Takayama seems a bit messed up in the head but obviously every much in control. Ishikawa comes off as boorish but being a straight seme what can you expect?
Still, I cannot approve of this. The mangaka can definitely learn something from Doushitemo Furetakunai though there is no rape element in there the relationship b/w a straight seme and a gay uke is there. And I suggest this as well because, for the third time, it's like the rape never happened.
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by Airendy
August 14th, 2014, 6:59am
Rating: 8.0 / 10.0
I liked this manga, I liked the characters and fluffy. Especially loved the last chapters.

I think is great about Ishikawa is not the type to have a serious relation but Takayama want to have...
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Sooo Sweet  
by yuri_shibuya
November 14th, 2013, 9:48am
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
I like this one were the seme is straight and don't give a damn about homos but eventually fell in love with the uke not because he is gay but because he loves the guy.
I quite like this manga and it is one of my all time favorite.
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by sallyen
August 27th, 2013, 4:10pm
Rating: 7.5 / 10.0
Better than expected. Very light hearted even though there is some rape in the story. I really enjoyed the interactions/dynamic of the couple - no tears whatsoever in this story which is refreshing. There was one line in the manga which made me irk:
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
"all gays expect you are disgusting" it might be the translation that makes it so harsh, but I really disliked that particular line.

Overall I enjoyed the story and also the extra!
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by AngelCharms
June 15th, 2013, 4:29pm
Rating: 8.0 / 10.0
This one is gay uke/straight seme pairings. The seme is cruel and aggressive and the uke gives in easily. Typical yaoi couple. A bit drama going on making it better. It has potential though.
The art is decent. Non feminine uke makes it even better.
Over all, a good read.
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Common enough.  
by Kinky-Chan
December 30th, 2012, 7:16am
Rating: 8.5 / 10.0
Well, I've read a lot of rape stories with the victim falling head over heels for the rapist so to me, this type of plot is pretty common. I can already expect the outcome and I know how the ending's gonna be but that doesn't stop me from reading this. The jokes were funny (especially their expressions) and although there's rape element, the overall story is pretty light-hearted, no tears, nothing, just laughter. And of course, love. Anyway, it's enjoyable!
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So Great!!  
by fisukisuki
February 29th, 2012, 10:25am
Rating: 10.0 / 10.0
You know? I mean, it's feel so right! So good! So nice and i feel so relieved! biggrin

Knowing the Seme(Ishikawa) was straight, make my heart pounding and wondered what could make him love the Uke who is already Gay(Takayama). Given Ishikawa seems not the type to have a serious relationship, and Takayama who want to have a serious relationship... So opposite. GREAT! I'm very happy to hear a reason or a sentence that makes them be together.

I was very relieved and very happy to see the scene when:
Spoiler (mouse over to view)
Takayama: "...but you're not gay."
Ishikawa: "Hell, no!! All other gays are disgusting. I only want you."
The answer is suitable for straight Seme! :D

... Last updated on February 29th, 2012, 10:26am
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Started off, got better  
by KittyTeea
August 17th, 2011, 3:42pm
Rating: 9.0 / 10.0
I really liked this story and especially the characters. The uke is strong minded, not in the least a wimp, and has a realistic thinking realising that there cannot be a relationship with a straight guy. The only weird thing is the rape scene, I mean he isn't scared, and doesn't fight much, moreover he seems to be more interested in analysing Ishikawa's issues and circumstances, and the final part with the hand is almost funny. Anyway I also liked the seme, he really grew to love Takayama and struggles to prove it.

The flow of the story also seemed very natural, so, despite the first chapter, this manga turned out to be one of the most realistic yaois I've read, focusing on the development of the characters and their reactions in such a situation as a gay being in love with a straight guy and the latter accepting his feelings (but not the fact that he is also gay). Actually the fact that Takayama is reluctant to believe Ishikawa is what makes this story unique.

... Last updated on August 17th, 2011, 3:48pm
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i'm cracking up  
by pleochroic
March 17th, 2011, 12:20am
Rating: 7.0 / 10.0
i've seen a lot of rapes in BL land after which the rapee reacts in ways inconceivable in the real world, but this one takes the cake. he dusts himself off, asks his rapist to give him a hand up, and starts conversing with him about how it's really childish to take one's frustrations out in this way.

i don't even know what to say. i don't think i was supposed to laugh this hard at that situation.

that said, this wasn't actually half bad if one ignores the raping. it was mostly amusing me because i couldn't take it seriously, but takayama is a great uke, very sensible and smart. he is absolutely no wimp. ok, he's susceptible to ishikawa's charms; he has a crush before the rape, but if that were weakness we'd all be wimps. when he recognizes the sexual relationship isn't good for him, he breaks it off (and in a good, honest way too), and it takes ishikawa a lot of effort to get him back. if only all uke were such "wimps".

... Last updated on March 17th, 2011, 12:21am
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