Instead of worrying about everything why not try to enjoy yourself a bit more?
I mean you're only 15 at the moment so still a young teenager. So try to have some fun, do things you wanna do.stop worrying about everything that has happened and about everything that can happen.
Life is tough but remember if life gives you lemons, slices those suckers up and enjoy them with a bottle of tequila. Meaning don't always look at the negatives but try to look at the positives.
For the rest make a choice and stick by it. It won't do you any good second guessing everything. If you love art and love drawing then why not try it? In worst case it doesn't work out, then you just try something else.
Don't let other people say what you gotta study and what you gotta do with your life. Listen to their advice but in the end it's you who has to make the decision. So why not do something you love and you think it's fun?

And indeed like forte says don't worry to much about the future, enjoy the day. like they say in kung-fu panda: Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, but today is a gift, that’s why they call it the present. So don't worry and have more fun.

So tell me, what's it like living in a constant haze of stupidity?

I don't know why you're talking about it, you should rap about it.

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For my whole life the only thing I've always loved had been art. When I was 15 my dream was to be an artist. When I was in high school it still was my dream but at the same time I started to realise that it wouldn't be that easy. I was never very good at school,(probably because I was a bit lazy and got bored easily in class so instead of studying in class my notebooks were always full of drawings. At home I did nothing but draw). After high school ended I tried to get in to art schools even tho my friends and teachers pretty much all said I had no hope. But I still wanted to try. Well it didn't work out that well. I was depressed for a while but then got tired of doing nothing and started working. My parents have always been very supportive when it comes to art because they know how much it means to me and I know they will always support me in that area. I still work but whenever I hav free time I paint, I draw and last year I started to draw my comic. I have sold my paintings and even had an art show with my friend, Ive also sold few of my drawings for tattoo parlons(or whatever they called). So even tho my dream didn't come through the way I always dreamed it would, I never hav thought of giving it up. Of course I still sometimes dream of being an artist and just being able to do that all day long but that will most likely never happen. Still I want to pursue my dream as much as I can. So don't give up your dream that easily. There's always some way to make things work. Sometimes it takes few sacrifices, sometimes it hurts but if it's what you truly want to do then don't give up so easily.
You're still young. When I was your age I went through alot of stuff, I made a lot of bad choices, I gave my parents alot of trouble but everyone makes mistakes, everyone has gotten hurt so don't think you're all alone in that matter. You can be depressed about it for a while but then you just have to pull yourself together and learn from those mistakes. The only thing I know is that If I had given up on my dream I would have regretted it for my whole life. So be stubborn, do stuff you want to do instead of doing stuff others wants you to do coz it's your life. Your the one who has to live through it so why not do stuff that makes you happy. Get hurt, be happy.don't think too much about your future right now you're still 15 so try doing stuff that makes you happy right now instead of wasting your life worrying about the future that may never come. I have always lived my life day by day. I have no idea what my life will be like next year or 40 years from now.It's both scary as it is exciting. But that the only way I know how to life.

Fristly i have one important question for you : " what kind of drawing you whanted to do in your futur ?"
you didn't say clearly what you wanted to do, so i can't answer your question.

And just to say, i don't know where you live but in france you need to have at least " le bac " to enter a descent drawing school, so you didn't realy wasted your time.

The best advice you'll ever receive comes from you actually experiencing life. What we say is pointless compared to what you'll actually go through. So instead of taking notes of "I should do this/I should never do that," go out, take risks and learn first hand how you should live your life. Only through experience will you know.

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when i graduate i'll be 16,its coz i entered school early
what made me realize i can't pursue a career in art?
hmm...its kind of complicated...its because im doing the british system exams (i finished my o levels and im doing the advanced level right now) ive done alot of exams especially o levels(i had to do 15 subjects T_T ) and thank god i did well on all of them but i literally died ,the last 2years were like hell to me(staying up all night studying etc etc) and now after all this effort and mind wreck i cant just throw everything away and become an artist you know wat i mean?
and my parents are also strongly prejudiced against it(but its not the main reason why i decided to forget about art)
and i also talked to my cousin ,he's a game designer and he told me how much hes struggling with his job,and that its not financially satisfying (eventhough he's very talented at drawing)

so eventhough i love art,i realized its not something i could pursue....
realizing you cant follow your dreams is very frustrating 🙁

Eh... I guess I'm going to have to provide the unpopular "logical" perspective. No offense to tactics and others. They chose a path that worked out for them and their experience tells them to go with their passions.

My own experience was different, which I'm sure you'll appreciate as my response to you won't be cliche.

I started off being interested in software development as a kid, mainly because I wanted to make my own games. After realizing that it would be next to impossible to keep up with more modern games by just programming on my own (along with a host of other hard realities), I began thinking more carefully about what fields I was interested in.

I was interested in in psychology, but my parents and others discouraged that and wanted me to go into engineering, since I had been accepted into the best engineering schools in the nation, one of them being only 20 minutes drive away from home. Like you, I didn't want my hard work in high school to go to waste.

I thought I'd regret that. I didn't feel very passionate about it, and thought it was too much tedious work. I didn't think I'd ever enjoy it...

You know what? I'm fine with it now. I have high income doing something that I kind of enjoy. I like being on top of latest software technology, being surrounded by extremely intelligent individuals, and having some managerial control over what others do and how things are done.

The thing is, I never thought it would be fun/rewarding until I tried it... and as materialistic as it may sounds, it feels pretty good not needing to worry about money.

People change. People are dynamic, and don't have to be static. As I mentioned above, I had made up my mind about what I want to be and what I want to do at least 3 times. These were major life decisions. I think as people grow up, they'll start to realize that there's more to reality than that romantic notion of blindly and stubbornly following a single passion/goal.

Note that just because you choose not to major in art in college, doesn't mean you can't be an artist on the side. You can draw or take classes on the side (or after you graduate and start working a day job). Or you can just draw/paint/create as a hobby. No one is stopping you. Keep in mind that some of the best artists/writers didn't start off as such. Many of the very best artists and writers had or still have day jobs with which they draw inspiration/ideas from. At the very least, they aren't just good at art. They spend a lot of time on research. Their experiences in specific non-artistic fields provide them with enriching experiences that average people wouldn't know and might find interesting.

As for the advice, my best advice, whenever you're lost on what to do, is to envision yourself in the future. Try not to be vague, "I envision myself as an artist!" (or whatever). The important thing is to be clear, concrete, precise. Brainstorm and list what you want or expect to have in the future. Example:

• I want to have a career in art.

• I picture myself working 40 hours a week or less.

• I want to work for a friendly manager; I want to work with a company that has limited creative control over my work.

• I want to be married by 30.

• My husband will be [not abusive], [working professional], [working in a different/same field as me]...

• My husband and I will have X hours to spend together per week.

• I will have 2-3 children.

• I have a close group of friends with whom I spend a fair amount of time with.

• I'll probably be spending N hours per week and M dollars on cosmetics to make myself look good.

• I'll have 1 cat, no dogs, etc

• I will to travel very often.

• My family will live in a 3 bedroom house in XYZ neighbourhood, where the average home value is 800k USD.

• I want to retire at age 60.

... Do as much brainstorming as you can, and be honest. Organize the tidbits however you like (professional goals, social goals, etc). Then try to figure out what makes sense and what doesn't.

Example, if you only want to work 30 hours per week as a graphic designer, it might be unrealistic to want an 800k USD house, travel around the world, and retire at age 60. If you want to own a house and two cars, with a middle class income, you might want to save. If you want to marry early to an attractive man whom you expect to have higher standards, you might want to also set some time for exercising, cosmetics, socializing/dating, etc.

The clearer your vision of the future is, the clearer your path will be. The more vague you are about your future, the harder it will be for you to draw a map/plan. Without this map, you don't have a clear direction. Someone with no direction in life will essentially be putting himself/herself in the hands of Lady Luck, bumping around blindly until he/she gets to where he/she wants to be. It works out for some people, not so well for others.

just smile!! get rid of the angst!!
seize the day!
love yourself! because its the only person who wouldnt turn against you!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! love the whole world because its such a brilliant place!!
no matter what happens always try to look at the brighter side.. i know, i know..its tough but.. its really beautiful if you keep looking there!!!
and most of all everything happens for a reason!!
and as for the relationship bit.. please do listen to this song!!
"...though i guess before that, its probably vital that i look for you, at least look for me." 🙂

good luck on life! its one hell of a game!! i hope you win!!! im currently on level 16 right now.. just one level ahead!! XD

oh please do click this!
The sweeter the apple, the higher the branch. The quieter the fart, the nastier the smell.
GUESS WHO??

dont believe shit easily...and world is a f-ed up place lol

The Don: Young Makaveli

love is evil, spell it backwards and I'll show you...

"my mind shines bright even when my thoughts seem dark"

Never Ignorant Getting Goals Accomplished

The Hate U Give Little Infates F***s Everybody

justILLMATIC

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just smile!! get rid of the angst!!
seize the day!
love yourself! because its the only person who wouldnt turn against you!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! love the whole world because its such a brilliant place!!
no matter what happens always try to look at the brighter side.. i know, i know..its tough but.. its really beautiful if you keep looking there!!!
and most of all everything happens for a reason!!
and as for the relationship bit.. please do listen to this song!!
"...though i guess before that, its probably vital that i look for you, at least look for me." 🙂

good luck on life! its one hell of a game!! i hope you win!!! im currently on level 16 right now.. just one level ahead!! XD

I am sure Lithuania would disagree with the whole you would not turn againt yourself thing. Love the whole world? What even North Korea? If we want to get technical only a few places in the world are brilliant. Also not everything happens for a reason some things just happen but I guess I should try telling a physicist that.

At the end of the day what happens, happens. You're just a grain of sand on this lovley beach of life and if you are gone no one would notice apart from the people closest to you. Well hope I have not been to depressing for you but to be honest I just want you to stop whining.

Edit: @ Makaveli - I quote George Carlin by saying The planet is fine. The people are fucked.

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Find something important to you, whatever it is (a person, an ideal, a dream, a belief.. anything is possible as long as it is right) and life for this something. Then you won't feel this empty.

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just smile!! get rid of the angst!!
seize the day!
love yourself! because its the only person who wouldnt turn against you!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! love the whole world because its such a brilliant place!!
no matter what happens always try to look at the brighter side.. i know, i know..its tough but.. its really beautiful if you keep looking there!!!
and most of all everything happens for a reason!!
and as for the relationship bit.. please do listen to this song!!
"...though i guess before that, its probably vital that i look for you, at least look for me." 🙂

good luck on life! its one hell of a game!! i hope you win!!! im currently on level 16 right now.. just one level ahead!! XD

I am sure Lithuania would disagree with the whole you would not turn againt yourself thing. Love the whole world? What even North Korea? If we want to get technical only a few places in the world are brilliant. Also not everything happens for a reason some things just happen but I guess I should try telling a physicist that.

dude.. please do chill! life you see.. is beautiful 🤣 you are killing the positivity!! humans are designed to love not to hate! so please.. dont assume the negative! 😢 🤣

oh please do click this!
The sweeter the apple, the higher the branch. The quieter the fart, the nastier the smell.
GUESS WHO??

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! humans are designed to love not to hate!

:Stunned Silence:

Mind-boggling. You can see/hear news from Libya, Yemen, Egypt, Pakistan, hell, even from local newspapers, of truly atrocius acts and still think positively about humans.

If that's optimism, congrats. If that's simple illusionment, open your eyes.

(No, I did not say you are optimistic, or that you are living in a dream world, I said it's one of the two - you choose)

There are times when you will miss what you never had. I wonder how you will find what you so desperately need.

Chase what you really want to chase, not what is convenient.

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! humans are designed to love not to hate!

:Stunned Silence:

Mind-boggling. You can see/hear news from Libya, Yemen, Egypt, Pakistan, hell, even from local newspapers, of truly atrocius acts and still think positively about humans.

If that's optimism, congrats. If that's simple illusionment, open your eyes.

(No, I did not say you are optimistic, or that you are living in a dream world, I said it's one of the two - you choose)

well i choose to be optimistic, great ol one!
optimism is not being simple minded or living in illusion.. its simply looking at the brighter side.. but even though i am looking towards there doesnt mean that i am ignorant of the fact that there is darkness behind me... but how could you possibly live life to the fullest when you are too bothered by the darkness behind you? 🙂

oh please do click this!
The sweeter the apple, the higher the branch. The quieter the fart, the nastier the smell.
GUESS WHO??

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! humans are designed to love not to hate!

:Stunned Silence:

Mind-boggling. You can see/hear news from Libya, Yemen, Egypt, Pakistan, hell, even from local newspapers, of truly atrocius acts and still think positively about humans.

If that's optimism, congrats. If that's simple illusionment, open your eyes.

(No, I did not say you are optimistic, or that you are living in a dream world, I said it's one of the two - you choose)

well i choose to be optimistic, great ol one!
optimism is not being simple minded or living in illusion.. its simply looking at the brighter side.. but even though i am looking towards there doesnt mean that i am ignorant of the fact that there is darkness behind me... but how could you possibly live life to the fullest when you are too bothered by the darkness behind you? 🙂

Kudos to you and your optimism 🙂

There are times when you will miss what you never had. I wonder how you will find what you so desperately need.