I've read this before but the manga I read before has not so good translation, I really didn't understand it but loved it because it's psychological-romance,
I've had mixed feelings against kou before; 'that he chose violence over her, loves her but not enough to choose her. Then read it again and realize that I love natsume and kou's character equally (despite natsume's flaws. she's quite hard to love because she's so selfish haha )
I've re-read it again, and this time I understand why they did what they did (even though it's a manga that still makes me think every chapter) it has such a good ending. at the end all I felt was peace, even if the
! relationship/circumstance look really painful because even after their son happened they didn't marry or have communications, because at the end it said that after haruto they don't have communication, then met again after 17 years, and 6 months from then got married. And really for otomo I think natsume was a good experience for him. vice versa.. no lingering feelings/thoughts that it should've been otomo. Because if she stayed with otomo she won't be what she is at 55, that conquered japan, cos even if otomo would support her it won't last in their 20-30s, he'll want her to settle, and natsume really loves that thrill she's experiencing through cameras. and for kou I don't think they got back just because of their history(I've read somewhere that they think its just because of history.) She truly loves kou she just love Otomo as a person but not romantically, she loves how otomo is so stable,so natural, so kind, accepting so ideal, she loves the quality that otomo can offer. And even if she's deceiving otomo, or has something troubling her, otomo doesn't notice, she has to say it, while kou and natsume can understand each other with just one look, and In natsume's case looks and actions. (I actually think that natsume notices that too she has just desires so she ignores it, but subconsciously knows.) While the love natsume and kou have for each other is based on connection, they have this understanding, acceptance quality in their relationship, that no matter what the other do, they'll still love each other,accept it, understand it, they're always pulling each other up. They have this CONNECTION. Kou, I don't think he really was sad too in his life before their marriage, he seems so calm, so at peace, so accepting that I don't think he's suffering before her. So I think the prediction of that ends with just mentioning that blaze. (I look forward to my review next year! I wonder what'll change? Haha)
Also! Love the supernatural!! It makes so much sense if you guys keep that in mind. Don't know why it doesn't have supernatural in genres when the core of the story is supernatural.
I've read one review that says kou is invincible, he's sooo NOT! Kou's so damaged, full of insecurity, If he's invincible then why's he suffering? And the four leads Natsume, Kou, Kana, Ohji
just needs self-love, it's the root of their sufferings. Kou didn't really experience love, writing this makes me realize how he is so sad. Wanna cry, haha