Hum, when I read the description, I expected it to be controversial (which I like). Then I read the reviews and though it would be awesome. Well, it’s both, in fact. But that just means this manga is atrociously, horrifically good. Finally, a correct take on the rape issue. I really don't care for rape, I mean, I'm not those people that can't stand the you-rape-me-so-I-love-you type of manga or those who are morally concerned and get horrified by it. I can take it pretty easily, whatever the situation is. But really, more realistic mangas likes this one are brilliantly good. I love psychological plots! And what do they bring along with them? Pain, angst, dark pasts and deep, intense relationships. I cried my heart out, just the way I like it! More than that…All the things I expect from a manga and sometimes have to search so desperately for (since it’s one out of ten that I actually consider this good).
Well, at the beginning, I didn't see how that would become love. They hated each other and I couldn't ever see that being developed into something even good. Gosh, this is such an emotional roller coaster! At first I hated both the characters, and the only thing I felt between them was hate. As their feelings turned into love, mine towards them turned into pity and admiration. Some people say you don't have to like the characters in order to like the story. I never agreed to that until now. I think they are both pathetic and twisted in their own ways, but I still enjoyed the story very much.
Wakae's completely broken. He's screwed up - yes, thank to Tatsuki, partially, but he was weak to begin with, as Tatsuki says himself. I love the moral consciousness of it all. More than feeling the pain of rape, Wakae feels the pain of betrayal. The scar Tatsuki left on him is much more psychological than physical, even if the act itself was physical.
Tatsuki, on the other hand, is even more screwed up. He shows love by raping, hurting and trying to tie down the person he loves. Then he himself realizes a long lost love, through his own suffering. He's almost numb to life, as he goes by it disguised as a common man, even though he was such an outstanding kid and also even though he clearly though about Wakae ever since the beginning of the manga, before their encounter. I also love when the main characters gets totally mind broken, like they are almost lifeless. It makes it all more touchy!
As for the "character who bullies the one they love" category up there, I still wonder: after all, who bullied the one they loved? Wakae? Tatsuki? Or both of them? It’s amazing that it swings both ways.
And the end is particularly adorable! Hehe, I love how Tatsuki suddenly turns into a complete uke at the end and says cheesy stuff like "I though you abandoned me" and such. Not only that, but they both turn completely lovey-dovey and say sweet stuff to each other... So unfitting with the rest of story that it's actually cute!
The art is pretty mostly, but it's rather dark. They have hair - everywhere. I know men are supposed to have hair, but they usually don't in yaoi. Even so, it suits the story.
Oh, and some of the expressions used on dialogue were so dirty! My innocent me was all: O.O (I'm kidding... But they are dirty).
Well, my only complaint - and it's not that big - is that I'd like to have seen Wakae's side a little more. Other than that, this manga is totally worth it.