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One day Hatsuki was hurt on campus and was helped by Watakabe Tatsuyuki, the most famous idol in school. Hatsuki, being gay, secretly fell in love with Watakabe. However, Watakabe doesn't have any interest in Hatsuki until one day when Hatsuki found out the truth about Watakabe's words: "I killed my little brother."
-------------------------------- Dj: Beautiful world / 美しい世界 (Extra Edition - 2009)
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Call me kinky
For some reason, i have always enjoyed reading mangas about domestic violence and sadistic charecters. I feel it offers a real insight into these peoples emotions even though most of the time they are artificial. Here, i felt it was a little more realistic in some aspects as it followed on from the prequal and we can see that this sadist had been emotionally scarred to cause him to commit such things against his lover. It shows the emotional struggle as a child followed on by the sturggle he faces now. I feel the end was rather abrupt and too simple. I think the mangaka should have followed onto this with chapters on tatsuyuki overcoming his violence and learning to love. It would have made a great finishing to show that domestic violence could be overcome because in reality, that never really happens so it would have added a bit of sunshine to this dark manga. The uke was your typical abusee and was a real portrayal of a person who cannot escape domestic violence because of this thing called 'love'. Though it was portrayed that tatsuyuki did fall for him, there didn't seem to be any justification to it apart from the uke kind of being timid and putting up with him which is not real love. I felt that tatsuyuki was in love with the idea of being loved and the first person to put up with his abuse that had gone from emotional with his brother to sever physical with his lovers was too shallow and should have been expressed differently to show that tatsuyuki loved oher parts of hiroki that didnt include just his submissive personality.
Ended Too Soon
The ratio of trauma vs healing is completely off in this manga, where it is about 80% trauma and 20% semi-healing. For a good trauma/healing story, those numbers should be reversed or at least 50-50. As it stands, it is just a lot of bloody violence with very little character growth and a forced "happy ending" that reads more like battered wife syndrome than actual love.
I do find the characters themselves interesting, but the author needed to portray a lot more of the post-make-up reconciliation and difficulties. Watakabe should have had more struggles and inner turmoil leading to an obvious (aka show it to the readers!) paradigm shift followed by an equally painful and much longer time reforming himself and apologizing/making it up to Hazuki. I mean, what's going to happen if Hazuki gets a job in another city post graduation? I don't feel like at any point in the manga Watakabe resolved his issues of control, so they're going to be a miserable couple in the future if Hazuki ever gets a life independent of Watakabe. (Well, I guess in the author's mind, Hazuki will make a cute housewife or something...)
If you get past all the rape and abuse... who are you kidding? There's no getting past the rape and abuse here, and I don't know how some people can. This story's core is rape and abuse. Without it, it'd be a happy story of love, sure, but that would be a whole other story with whole other characters--not this story. This isn't your typical BL "forced love" or dub-con--it's 100% violence and abuse and should be read as such.
The only way to redeem this story is to rewrite it. If you want this sort of plot but done infinitely better, go read Sayounara, to Kimi wa Te o Futta, which is an incredible manga.
Not as bad as I thought
To be honest I was a bit apprehensive of starting this manga. I wasn't entirely sure if I should spend my time on it after looking at the ratings and comments but decided to read it anyway. I won't say I'm thoroughly pleased to not have skipped this because I'm neutral about it, but I think the story is more than meets the eye.
Sure it's not your everyday BL where the "happy" kind of love floats in the air like every 3 pages or so, and the characters weren't that appealing -- personality wise (especially Watakabe, jeez he deserves a punch or two from someone). However, if you get passed the rape aspect of the story you'd truly see what it's worth; the author has shown a different kind of love about accepting someone wholeheartedly no matter what their circumstance is. Hatsuki saw something in Watakabe that made him stick to the latter 'til the very end despite the cruelties done to him. And in Watakabe I see a very lonely person who is in desperate need of someone to understand and love him.
So after all that deep thinking in my part (seriously, it's starting to verge on the philosophical), I still gave the series a 6.5 simply because it was too short. I would've truly appreciated it if there was more characterization to effectively portray what the mangaka is trying to tell us readers. The resolution wasn't that good either; Watakabe seeing a psychiatrist or something for the sake of himself and his partner would've definitely tugged my heart strings because, truthfully, even with how the story is wrapped up, there's no saying what might happen or what he might do -- he ever remains the broken person we see from the beginning albeit the savior in the form of Watakabe.
... Last updated on August 8th, 2011, 10:24pm
this is so bad, *sigh*
it's really sad to see that yamakami riyu is not growing out this ridiculous idea that somehow severe abuse and violence is excusable if the person only ends up in love with the one they abuse. there is slightly more depth in this work than there is in "deep flower", but she still completely fails to give watakabe any motivation that might make us understand exactly why he acts as he does. i hated his guts in "mitasereru" because he mistreated his brother (whom he was also allegedly in love with), and we never found out exactly what was behind his twistedness. we don't find out here either. and i cannot stand the sacrificial lamb uke who continues to suffer so the abusive lover can be redeemed. yamakami doesn't seem to understand that this is not actually redemptive at all; that the suffering and atonement need to be turned onto the abuser himself for it to work.
Not a fan
The uke needs therapy and the seme belongs in jail. I'm all for dark and cruel characters, but this guy doesn't have anything at all to redeem him (not that anything could redeem him for the horrible things that he does) and there is no real explanation as to why he's so abusive and why his personality changes so quickly. The story and characters don't make much sense either. For the record, this is not BDSM. It's flat out abuse and criminal behavior.
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The relationship starts out from rape of course. From then the relationship just gets more and more abusive and disgusting. Hatsuki's cousin is rightfully against the relationship after seeing the horrors his cousin has been going though, but completely changes his mind just pages later and realizes obviously Watakabe loves Hatsuki and they can't be without each other. HUH? You don't kidnap and abuse, drug and rape the ones you love! Not even in BL manga.
Hatsuki stands by his man throughout everything, until the end when he finally comes to the realization he has to leave. Yay. Not so fast. He tries to leave after being choked and raped, but is stopped and locked up in chains for days. During that time he seems to change his mind about leaving and only wants to convince Watakabe that he truly loves him. Shockholm sydrome anyone?
The impact of "killing my brother" is lost because most of that part of the story happened in another manga. There is also a sub-plot with his mother that really makes little sense as well.
The story climaxes with evil seme saving stupid uke from some guys trying to beat him up (oh the irony) and they have sweet sex and everything is okay. Disappointing to say the least. You never find anything about the characters at all. I'm used to explaining away horrible behavior in manga, but this isn't even explained.. it's just accepted for what it is. Did Watakabe remain abusive? There is no signs that he's "cured" since there is nothing that happened to possible change his behavior. So many questions. I'm not sure I want to know the answer though.
Obviously love is not always kittens and rainbows and love like this does happen, but at the end of the manga the "love story" between the two isn't portrayed as unhealthy. The seme is magically rehabilitated for some reason and we are just supposed to accept it all. I gave it two stars because I like the mangaka's art. Don't read it otherwise.