This manhwa makes me very upset and very hopeless and very sad, I cried last night thinking about it (wrote this last month).
It is too real, I know, but when I read manhwa I want to escape reality and get positive energy.
Pauliana's life is very sad and everything goes wrong with her, even the only man who truly loves her wants her to be a concubine in his "Harem", and the best potential partner she had got married, and that Levi knight and his wife were such a big depressant in her life too, I would've wished to die in her place if everyone thinks I HAVE TO get married and all my worth is a widower in his 50s WITH GRANDCHILDREN, very very disrespectful, she is not even past the age of marriage at that era how could they think of such thing😕?
and the only one who believes in her as a knight and doesn't discriminate against her gender is the man in love with her which is also sad IMO, I don't think her current personality will feel happy if she knows the emperor's feelings, she will feel looked down on again.
And despite all her achievements and hard work no one but a few of her underlings respect her. Everything she has can get taken away in a blink of an eye.
That's also why I feel like she will be extremely sad if her loyal relationship with the emperor gets taken away if he confesses. It's just so sad Why can't she be some amazing super powerful knight like a usual MC is ?? 🙁
I still love Pauliana and that's why I will continue reading this manhwa in the future but I need a break for a long while😔
and whenever I discuss this matter in a comment section, other readers tell me it's fine because she will find happiness in her love life with the emperor later on, but is that really a happy ending😕? can her happiness only be determined when she gets a man??
but again I think that maybe I was the reason why I am so worked up about this manhwa because I liked the idea I formed about it in my mind and I emotionally connected it to my reality too much.
because at first, I thought that this manhwa was meant to show a powerful female main character overcoming all the obstacles and leaving an everlasting fingerprint in her world, changing the way people think!... but sadly it is not.