What's your deepest, darkest secret and or fear

17 years ago
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ah, interesting topic, seems like a good way to dump my worries for this month! 😀
Well let see...
i have Vertigo, in that when i near height, my arms and legs start shaking and i feel like im going to loose my balance.
But for some insane reason i love the feeling afterwards, so...i like going up high places.
yeah. im a bit mad.
When i was in my teens, i was a bit suicidal, but i think most kids go though that bit if your a little on the low self-esteem and involved with wannabe-gang warfare i.e. which is probably why i idolised Onizuka... 🙄
Still got a bit of chronical depression, sometimes im scared it will overwhelm me, so its a constant battle.
what else....oh.
my deepest darkest fear is that one day im going to snap in an intense situation.
I'm a bit on the quiet side, and i never/rarely get truly angry since my mid teens.
I think if i was ever put in a violent situation again, (self-defence)
I'll snap and might hurt someone far more then usual, maybe i should buy a punch bag?
😕
And finally fear of showing my "weak side" to my family, disappointing them and failing in my career ending up like those worthless "Onii-chans" commonly seen in Western media portrayal being care for my imotou-chan's and having to babysit my nephews & nieces because i have nothing to do, before being kicked out as one of those homeless...
shudder
🙄
anyway that felt good.
thanks for the free therapy, talking really does make you feel better. 😁
walks off whistling
🤣

17 years ago
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Lol that sounds a lot like me Onizuka-GTO. It is nice to put your problems on the forums and get advice from peers and such, or just to rant about what troubles you in general.
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17 years ago
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my fears?...
to go crazy.. that would probably be the worst thing that could happen...
my deepest secret... well, i once knocked this drunk guy down from behind so that he fell and hit his face on the asphalt, but he wasn't that seriously injured
i was quite a clepto when i was a kid. i stole thing from stores, people, friends... but not any more =)
and then some stuff i probably shouldn't mention 😀

17 years ago
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my fear is probably becoming a bum and total failure in life after college O.O...my deepest darkest secret is i spent 1000 dollars on my dads credit card and my dad thought someone got a hold of it and no one still knows the truth 😀
i was nervous at first it was big & long & went straight up i had to try it i eased onto it & liked it! i went up & down on it.... i love escalators now! 😀
(great onizuka ftw)

17 years ago
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My largest fear is a queer combination of a large and heavy bouncing tire, and a small frail little needle that goes tink lightly as it falls. No I am not lieing, this has been the only re-occuring nightmare I have ever had. Just thinking about it makes me shudder, good thing I'm unlikly ever to encounter this in the real world.
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17 years ago
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Dark sicrets I don't have, but I do have strange fears~.~
I'm a little afraid of when the lights shut down on a power break, the darkness doesn't fright me, the moment when the lights suddenly turn off does>.<
And one or two others, that I don't feel like telling^^ 🤨
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17 years ago
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i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...

17 years ago
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i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...
Coward. You're scared of everything, aren't you? Brave up.
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17 years ago
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Quote from glamkitty
i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...
Coward. You're scared of everything, aren't you? Brave up.
that was mean. The fact that she didnt put xombiemonkey on her list of fears is a sign of true bravery!
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17 years ago
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Quote from x0mbiec0rp
Quote from glamkitty
i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...
Coward. You're scared of everything, aren't you? Brave up.
I do hope your kidding, couse if not, that was just plain uncalled for... 😔

17 years ago
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Quote from x0mbiec0rp
Quote from glamkitty
i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...
Coward. You're scared of everything, aren't you? Brave up.
I do hope your kidding, couse if not, that was just plain uncalled for... 😔
Of course I'm kidding. It's just hard for me to include a joking tone. And I should've included some joke about me being scared of only one thing that people aren't usually afraid of. I apologize for my foolish posting.
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17 years ago
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[quote=glamkitty]i have a fear of spiders or any bugs... and im claustrophobic so i never or try to not go on elevators... i'm also scared of Thunder/Lighting... i don't know why..but im very scared of it. and i always have been:S...
Coward. You're scared of everything, aren't you? Brave up.
I do hope your kidding, couse if not, that was just plain uncalled for... 😔
Of course I'm kidding. It's just hard for me to include a joking tone. And I should've included some joke about me being scared of only one thing that people aren't usually afraid of. I apologize for my foolish posting.[/quote]
xD though i kinda agree with you...oh well..at least im not scared of heights 🙂

17 years ago
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I fear a male's reproductive organs and I have a fear of seeing pain.

17 years ago
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im kinda weird.i like spiders but if they get anywhere near me ill scream. other than that hights i guess but nothing else unless u count my brothers and dad
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