What's your deepest, darkest secret and or fear

17 years ago
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I fear a male's reproductive organs and I have a fear of seeing pain.
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17 years ago
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Well, I decided to post some secrets I have in R/L, but are quite well known on the internet..(Or I think they are..) You would be surprised at the lengths I go through to keep these things hidden in R/L.
I'm Extremely Sadistic
I love the Horror genre
Love Violence and Gore
Swears, sometimes
I wonder what it would be like to kill people..
and, last but not least..
I wish I were a trained assassin.
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

17 years ago
Posts: 2581
Warn: Banned
Quote from Dragonfiremule
Well, I decided to post some secrets I have in R/L, but are quite well known on the internet..(Or I think they are..) You would be surprised at the lengths I go through to keep these things hidden in R/L.
I'm Extremely Sadistic
I love the Horror genre
Love Violence and Gore
Swears, sometimes
I wonder what it would be like to kill people..
and, last but not least..
I wish I were a trained assassin.
Why do you hide those in RL?
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
Posts: 2126
Quote from xombiemonkey
Why do you hide those in RL?
o.0 Do people actually have parents who would not send them to peoples?
I hide those because I would be (probably) Sent to therapy, put in a loony bin, or at the very least, get labeled as on the verge of insanity. Not to mention I would most likely be disowned from my family..
My mom freaked out and was seriously disturbed when I drew a man throwing jars of acid at people, and skeletons at his feet. He was being stabbed, too, but that was only a tiny little blood. Seriously.
My Mom is a holy person. I haven't EVER heard her swear, haven't EVER seen her enjoying a violent movie, and I have NEVER seen her doing anything bad.. I've seen/hear my dad doing all three of those, but in lesser degrees.
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

17 years ago
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Quote from xombiemonkey
Why do you hide those in RL?
o.0 Do people actually have parents who would not send them to peoples?
I hide those because I would be (probably) Sent to therapy, put in a loony bin, or at the very least, get labeled as on the verge of insanity. Not to mention I would most likely be disowned from my family..
My mom freaked out and was seriously disturbed when I drew a man throwing jars of acid at people, and skeletons at his feet. He was being stabbed, too, but that was only a tiny little blood. Seriously.
My Mom is a holy person. I haven't EVER heard her swear, haven't EVER seen her enjoying a violent movie, and I have NEVER seen her doing anything bad.. I've seen/hear my dad doing all three of those, but in lesser degrees.
First of all, therapy might be fun. Just screw with the therapist the entire time. And secondly, if your parents disown you because of that, they dont deserve to be you parents.
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
Posts: 4917
Quote from Dragonfiremule
Quote from xombiemonkey
Why do you hide those in RL?
o.0 Do people actually have parents who would not send them to peoples?
I hide those because I would be (probably) Sent to therapy, put in a loony bin, or at the very least, get labeled as on the verge of insanity. Not to mention I would most likely be disowned from my family..
My mom freaked out and was seriously disturbed when I drew a man throwing jars of acid at people, and skeletons at his feet. He was being stabbed, too, but that was only a tiny little blood. Seriously.
My Mom is a holy person. I haven't EVER heard her swear, haven't EVER seen her enjoying a violent movie, and I have NEVER seen her doing anything bad.. I've seen/hear my dad doing all three of those, but in lesser degrees.
gah, you are not lucky.
i swear, i talk about death and violence, and even watch violent things around my mah and she dont say anything to me...
i guess couse she trusts me not to do anything like kill someone...
but i too, wonder what it would be like...
and i agree with Xombie on this one, if they would disown you for that, they dont deserve to be parents..... 🤢

17 years ago
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Not fun at all. We're fostering some peoples who are in therapy, and I've visited. It smells horrible. Plus, the therapist can like.. see through you. o.0 Its freaky. Its just those eyes she has..
I guess, but still. I want some of my moms/dads stuff, so I can't risk being disowned..
Yeah, I'm really unlucky. I'm jealous of all you folks. How nice that would be..
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

17 years ago
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Warn: Banned
Quote from Dragonfiremule
Not fun at all. We're fostering some peoples who are in therapy, and I've visited. It smells horrible. Plus, the therapist can like.. see through you. o.0 Its freaky. Its just those eyes she has..
I guess, but still. I want some of my moms/dads stuff, so I can't risk being disowned..
Yeah, I'm really unlucky. I'm jealous of all you folks. How nice that would be..
Yeah, that does suck. If I were you I'd show my parents exactly what I was like. Dont care what they do to me, I'd just force them to live with it. And if they try to change me, I'm finding somewhere else to live till they come to their senses.
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
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But, but, but, call me childish, but I like my home. Not to mention I've been keeping it a secret since like... 5, so its kinda a habit now. I don't even think I could tell them if I tried.
I'll probably do it before I move out. Yeah. Or somewhere around there. Or maybe I'll tell them on their deathbead. I'm still not ready to tell them, atm. Plus, I like everyone thinking I'm the perfect child. It makes me feel smart because I'm foolin' with all them.
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

17 years ago
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Quote from Dragonfiremule
But, but, but, call me childish, but I like my home. Not to mention I've been keeping it a secret since like... 5, so its kinda a habit now. I don't even think I could tell them if I tried.
I'll probably do it before I move out. Yeah. Or somewhere around there. Or maybe I'll tell them on their deathbead. I'm still not ready to tell them, atm. Plus, I like everyone thinking I'm the perfect child. It makes me feel smart because I'm foolin' with all them.
I like my home too, but we all gotta make sacrifices. They're not gonna let me die on the streets, so I just gotta endure it. And if they do go ahead and let me die, f**k them.
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
Posts: 2126
Well, I don't feel a need to spill the beans, anyhow. If I do anytime, I'll tell them, but I don't even feel a vague want to do so.
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

17 years ago
Posts: 2581
Warn: Banned
Quote from Dragonfiremule
Well, I don't feel a need to spill the beans, anyhow. If I do anytime, I'll tell them, but I don't even feel a vague want to do so.
thats cool, I guess. It would be fun to admit it publicly, though, just for the shock value.
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
Posts: 75
fears... hmm... i have a fear that i will die young. i fear i may never leave my parents house. i fear wasting time on anythiing, and in return waste my time finding something to do that isnt a waste of time. i fear that my bad side will take over again at some point. i fear wearing sweatpants in public incase i get a boner. i fear that i may kill someone while trying to protect someone else.
secrets... hmm... more than once a few years ago, when i was sleeping in the same room as a girl i knew, i lifted up her shirt while she was sleeping and licked her nipples and groped her breasts while i masturbated, and she doesn't know b/c she didnt wake up. back when i used to like it, my favorite type of pornography was hentai, and i had a huge collection of naruto hentai. i used to steal from stores, and only stopped b/c i was caught and was brought to a police station to get scared. i sometimes find myself unable to look in a mirror for fear of seeing the me that did all this horrible stuff. i sometimes have nightmares of my past, and have woken up with tears in my eyes. i sometimes feel that i can never be forgiven for all of the sins that i have commited.
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17 years ago
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fears... hmm... i have a fear that i will die young. i fear i may never leave my parents house. i fear wasting time on anythiing, and in return waste my time finding something to do that isnt a waste of time. i fear that my bad side will take over again at some point. i fear wearing sweatpants in public incase i get a boner. i fear that i may kill someone while trying to protect someone else.
secrets... hmm... more than once a few years ago, when i was sleeping in the same room as a girl i knew, i lifted up her shirt while she was sleeping and licked her nipples and groped her breasts while i masturbated, and she doesn't know b/c she didnt wake up. back when i used to like it, my favorite type of pornography was hentai, and i had a huge collection of naruto hentai. i used to steal from stores, and only stopped b/c i was caught and was brought to a police station to get scared. i sometimes find myself unable to look in a mirror for fear of seeing the me that did all this horrible stuff. i sometimes have nightmares of my past, and have woken up with tears in my eyes. i sometimes feel that i can never be forgiven for all of the sins that i have commited.
Do ALL of your posts have to be so depressing?
Glados is a bitch. She made me kill the companion cube, the only friend I'll ever have. 😢
Chibidoro-sama=Neko-freak

17 years ago
Posts: 205
my deepest fear is to die by a painful death. I don't like an illness finishes me off and forces me to rot in a hospital like a piece of garbage. the choice for how to leave this world should be made by me, not by some stupid accident.
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