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Last edited by Raeryn at 10:47 am, Jun 11 2015

Both of Grandfather and a Grandmother....

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Only three important people since I've been cognizant about the significance of death or rather ones that I miss. My great grandmother and my only two older cousins (both of whom were from one family so my aunt and uncle lost their only children).

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My cousin........she committed suicide, none of us realized it because she acted like she did everyday, she would always be smiling and making the funniest jokes. I'm over it,but it still hurts that i could have looked behind the jokes and smile and see that she was in real pain.

my paternal grandparents, my grandmother was expected, as far as my grandfather he died in surgery so it was sort of unexpected but he also had fully metastasized cancer (lethal, cancer throughout the entire body) for 19 years and 20% of his hear working. as far as my grandparents are concerned we were very close (big italian family) they taught me poker, black jack, pinochle, and the whole family would gather at their house, i really do miss them both. as far as other deaths, the only 1 is my mother a few years back, that one is still the hardest of all to cope with.

a great grandmother
only one i remember, other great grand parents died before i was born
she had heart problems

Four grandparents, two uncles, an aunt, a sister, a father, two dogs and three cats.

I wasn't very close to all of them though, particularly my mother's parents. I honestly think I was saddest when the latest cat went, but my father's death was pretty difficult to handle mostly due to what we went though before he finally died. That and I actually watched him die and that sorta sticks with you. Even though I didn't really like him all that much his death still probably affected me the most.

My friend killed himself.And this guy named Kirby who was always nice to me, killed himself too. I've tried to kill myself too, but it's a nasty experience. Don't ever try it.

It's very shocking when one day someone's there and the next day they're gone forever. It's creepy. And I always put aside my emotions, so when I'm not crying along with everyone else, they think I'm insensitive.

This is so dark!