I forgot another yaoi. i have been looking for this one for a while and finally gave in. i looked at where i read it, i looked at the mangaka i think worte it, and ive look everywhere else but here. its about a guy who is in love with his homophobic friend. in the end they end up together, but i cant remember anything that happens. I know that the friend who was in love is the point of view the story is told through, his hair is lightly colored in, and i think he has sort of a meek personality. the one who is homophobic hates homos because he keeps getting violated by them i think, his hair isnt colored in at all, and he is uke. thats close to all i remember. plus it looks like NEKOTA Yonezous art.

Is it Abarenbou Kareshi ?

yes it is. thank you so much!