There has been many times where i got quite upset while reading the manga because i just cannot understand how the uke can just go and have sex with other people just because he is upset with the one he loves.....this is not the first manga i always feel that way. This did not take away though from how good and abstruse the relationship was portrayed.

well, chapter 3 is certainly a surprise; while i expected the motivation, i didn't expect what ended up happening. i quite like this manga; i am sympathizing with all three protagonists, even though none of them cover themselves with glory -- it's a good reminder of how the reality of love can be painful and woefully messy. the art fits the story very well, nuanced and expressive.

... Last updated on July 30th, 2007, 1:48pm

They get so tangled up in their emotions, it's.. just bad. The uke is depressed most of the time, and so are the semes.. They just mess each other up, and it's horrible. I forced myself to finish, but I didn't enjoy much.

Rushed, more sex scenes than actual plot, not much of a conflict from the love triangle, conclusion obvious from the first chapter, and use of sex to heal rape trauma. Really too many cliches to count. From the start, the events and characters are forced around the conclusion, not the conclusion being a resolution of the conflicts introduced.

Dammit.Dammit, dammit! I really wanted to be above all of this reviews. I was sure I was going to think differently from everyone else, that I'd have some deeper understanding no one else did. But no. I'm just like everyone else and I hated who Miwa ended up with.
However, I can say right now that I didn't hate the ending itself. I'm writing this right after having read the manga, so I didn't stop to think on it. But I think if I or any of you do, we can come to terms with what happened.

Although I cannot rate this a 10 due to some writing issues, it had some really strong points. Let's start with the weak ones first. The translation was really bad. In fact, it was so bad I had a hard time understanding what was being said. I even changed scanlators at one point and it was still awful, even worst than the first, so I ended up giving up and just reading a bad translation.
Then comes the pace. It assumes the readers grasp what is happening before it moves on to the next situation, and not in a good way. It is supposed to be understood that so much time has passed, the Miwa has gone over to Hoshina's house a lot of times, but we only get to see a short window of all of this, and it's not a good characteristic.
Finally, I wanted to read something that would make me cry my eyes out, and that's why I specifically looked for angst. But I would't call this entirely angst. In my opinion, the first three chapters were just outright drama. There is a very thin line between drama and angst. Angst comes from feelings, from internalizing and suffering over that. Drama feels more pushed upon the readers, like some tragedy going on that forces you to care for it. I wouldn't say drama is bad, but it's not what I usually go for. That's what the first three chapters feel like. Although Miwa is suffering, it feels very much like we are supposed to care for him, though we don't even know him. Then we get a glimpse of Katou on the third chapter, and it's very much the same way.
In the middle of chapter four, when things start turning more towards Hoshina, that's when the angst actually begins. It took me a while to realize he was the angsty character. Also, I'm someone who cries very easily and I only did in the last chapter.
The art is also not very much to my liking, and some scenes seem very sloppy.

Now let's get to the good parts.
First are the characters. Curiously enough, Miwa is the least interesting character. He feels like a very common uke to me, if only for some strength of character he has over most other ukes, and some acquired confidence in sex. Other than that, to me he feels very much like that character who's only there to get the wheels turning. But I wouldn't complain about him because it's quite difficult to get that much development in only 5 chapters when there are 3 main characters.
The interesting ones, however, are Katou and Hoshina. The only thing I can say without giving much away is that they both go through deep personal growth as this story goes by.

The plot is nothing new, but the way it was developed was absolutely original, and I've never seen anything like it.
I think one of the things that needed a little improvement was the rape thing. I'm not opposed to it (in manga, not real life!), but I think for the story to work with that content, there needs to be a certain depth that just can't be obtained in only 5 chapters. Which is why I understand it doesn't fulfill what I'd like for it to do to the characters involved.

I do think this manga is not for younger audiences. Reading some of the reviews here, I think it's very hard for inexperienced people to understand how life doesn't always go the way we planned, and that's somewhat realistic in this manga. People do have sex with people they don't like, people do hurt each other and make mistakes. We also can't judge others for past actions, but for the person they've become. All the characters grow throughout this manga, and we can't see them with the same eyes as in the first chapter. If I was reading this as the 15-yeard-old fujoshi I was, I'd probably not grasp it entirely either.
Finally, and probably the strongest point about this, is that it's not a forgettable manga. So it's a definite recommendation and not a waste of time. Also, it's gotten me interested in the author (I've never read anything from her before) and what else she has to offer.

... Last updated on December 6th, 2016, 1:41am

w.....t......f......i can't believe the ending. i was so shocked that i just skipped the entire last few pages. TTATT it was good (and depressing) in the beginning but the ending sucked!!!

I totally didn't expect this but the plot actually surprised me. I was so sure how it would go that the unexpected events made it a good read. Because the plot was (as for me) really good and additionally it managed to surprise me I think it's worth reading and besides I like angsty stories xD

... Last updated on May 4th, 2013, 1:18pm

The storyline quite disturbed me in some ways. I'm not a fan of storyline when sex is used for the cure of the pain, however this story reminded that love is not all about happiness but there is sad and sometimes to achieve it you have to bear the pain.

Ok, every little god damned shoujo smut manga and yoi manga revolves around the same mother fucking thing, but this one is very good! It's dirty and it's true! Its really reality we dont see in other mangas. Not everything is so beautiful and sometimes not even sex is...

I actually had pretty low expectations for this manga. The plot seemed a cliche love triangle, and the cover art wasn't really enough to draw me in. What persuaded me to read this however, were the high ratings.

I basically read this entire manga with tears in my eyes, but I honestly loved it all except for the ending. I hated who the final couple was. Hated it. I would have given this a ten but the ending just ruined it a little.